recovery ✧ h. grier

25

April

2 more months. 2 more months till I leave to Los Angeles. To make matters even worst Hayes and I got into an argument.

It was over something that was completely ridiculous. He still has this thought in his head that Jacob's trying to get 'close' to me again.

If I wanted to be with Jacob, then I wouldn't be with Hayes right now. I feel like Hayes just doesn't understand me sometimes. I have a lot of things going on in my life, too. Like he's not the only one on the 'rise to fame'. He into social media fame, while I'm into movies, shows, and things like that.

He also has his football career so it's not like he doesn't have a life ahead of him. He gets mad at me when I talk to Jacob about things school related, but when I see him talking to Ashley, do I say anything? No.

Guys just make my head heart. There's so many of their little 'guy code' things and I'm just here like who cares. I mean if you see a girl first she's automatically yours? That's stupid. If she doesn't like the guy, then she doesn't like him. If she likes your friend instead of you, oh well. Cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.

Today, was probably one of my worst days at school. Hayes walked by me in the hallways, without even looking at me. It took every ounce of me, not to break down in tears at that moment.

I saw him every single day. When the final bell would ring, I'd rush to my locker just to avoid walking near Hayes. Today was Thursday which meant I was going to see Julie, again. My mom dropped me off and told me, to text her when it's almost over.

"So Jasmine, has anything been happening over the past week? That you'd like to talk about of course." Julie smiles.

"Is it okay, if I talk about relationships? Like boy drama, and all that?"

"Of course." She nods

"Okay well my best friend for like ever now, has stopped talking to me. I was able to tell him everything that happened in my life, but after one argument he hasn't spoken a single word to me. Not only is he my best friend, but he's my boyfriend."

"May I know, what the argument was about?"

"It was about me leaving to California. He knows that sooner or later we are going to 'break up' and I suggested that we take a break. He on the other hand, thinks that we could make long-distance work. The only people I've seen pull off long-distance is Kiandrea."

"Ki-who?"

"Oh Julie you have so much to learn," I said while shaking my head.

For the next hour, I explained ship names, and youtubers to Julie. At first she was very confused as to why people exposed themselves on the internet, but I told her that they could be who they wanted to be online. Which made me realize how people on the internet truly make me happy?

She suggested I start a youtube channel, so I did. I mean, I already had one it's just I don't make real videos. I then started to think about this even more. It would be cool, since I'm an actress. It'd help me remember who I am, and not get carried away in fame.

"Bye, Julie! I'll see you next week!" I waved goodbye and closed the door.

Today I was staying home. It's not because I'm sick or anything, it's just that Elizabeth has a doctor's appointment and needed someone to watch Skylynn. Why would she choose me over Hayes? Well, its simple. Hayes is irresponsible and he's missed to many days already, aside from his suspension.

When Hayes was leaving, I walked over. He brushed my shoulder and I wanted to yell at him. Not for brushing my shoulder, but for not talking to me. He was leaving me all by myself, without showing me any emotions. Like what the fuck is he, a robot?

"Jassie!" Skylynn shouted while running over to me.

"Sky! How are you doing baby girl?" I swung her around and rested her on my hip.

"I'm good, how come you don't come over anymore? It makes me sad when I don't see you." She then put a frown on her face.

"You know my schedule has just been jam packed, but I have an idea. Wanna hear it?"

"Yeah!" I sat her down on the stool by the island.

"How about every other Friday, I'll come over and we'll have a Jas & Sky day?"

"That sounds fantastic! Can my horses come too?"

"Of course they can come to our hang out!" Sky had a smile on her face the whole time, and her eyes were lit up.

I played horse with Sky maybe 4 times today, and even 4 times isn't enough for her. What hurts is that I'm always the horse, and sometimes a horse needs a break. I walked down the stairs to get us a drink.

"JASSS! I MEAN HORSIE! WHERE ARE YOU?!" Sky yelled.

"COMING, I MEAN NEIGH NEIGH!"

"Hayes walked through the door, making me drop Sky's caprisun and my water.

He then grabbed my hand and helped me up.

"Thanks."

He muttered, "No problem," then walked into the kitchen.

I continued to walk back up the steps. A part of me waited for Hayes to grab my wrist and say he's sorry, but it never happened.

"Sky, do you think I'll make a good actress?"

"What's an act ess?"

"An actress is a girl who, well acts. She's in movies, and tv shows, and commercials. Things like that."

"I think you'll do good." She cheesed so hard, showing all her teeth.

"Thanks Sky, you're my best friend," I pulled her into a hug and rubbed her back.

"JASMINE, SKY, I'M HOME!" Elizabeth yelled out to us.

I walked down the steps with Skylynn on my back, and put her down when I reached the final step.

"Thank you so much, Jas. I can always count on you." She pulled me in for a hug. If there was one thing I've learned over the past years, it's that this family is a hugging one.

"No problem, Liz. Can I hangout with Sky every other Friday, till I leave?"

"Of course I'm sure she'll love that."

"Okay well I'll be on my way now."

I reached for the doorknob, to be greeted by Ashley. I rolled my eyes and closed the door still leaving her on the porch. If she wants to be let in then let someone who lives there open it.

Treat me like a queen, and I'll treat you like a king. Treat me like a game, and I'll show you how it's played.

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A/N: 2 more chapters + epilogue! VOTE, COMMENT, SHARE, AND FOLLOW💗 btw I'm almost at 99k reads!! Ahhh that's cray!