He's Just... Dangerous

Chapter 34

Nicolette's POV

"You okay babe? Does your head hurt or something?" He asked concerned. I laughed awkwardly.

"No I uhm, I was praying." I looked at him. His eyes widened at his mistake.

"Oh, uh sorry. I usually don't, uhm. You know like I'm not exactly christi-" I cut him off.

"You're fine." I said quickly, hoping to end the conversation.

Thankfully he stayed quiet after that. I started eating and kept my eyes down.

"I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable." He mumbled. I sighed and looked at him, seeing him look at me.

"No, it's fine. Seriously, it's okay." I said, nodding.

"So, do you have any bible verses you know off the top of your head?" He asked. I looked at him confusingly.

"Do you?" He furrowed his eyebrows. I nodded slowly.

"John 3:16... For God so loved the world, that he gave his only son. That whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." I repeated my favorite verse. I memorized it a long time ago.

"Any more?" He asked. I nodded.

"Psalms 147:3. He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." I said. He nodded.

"What about 1 Corinthians 6:8-9? Do you know that?" He asked me. I looked at his sad eyes and shook my head slowly.

"I know I've heard it before but I don't remember it." I said. He cleared his throat.

"Instead, you yourselves cheat and do wrong, and you do this to your brothers and sisters. Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God?" He recited and looked down in guilt and sadness. I sighed and realized what he was trying to say.

"If I'm not going to Heaven, why believe... in my opinion, I'd rather not believe something that's telling me I'm going to suffer when I die." He looked at me with a blank look. I looked at him with the same look, not knowing what to say.

"If God is real, he doesn't love me. Especially after everything I've done." He got up and put his empty plate in the dishwasher. I got up and followed doing the same. I wasn't going to let him believe God hated him. Because he doesn't.

"You can't do anything that's too bad for God to forgive you. He doesn't hate you. He loves you." I said. I still wasn't sure what I was exactly going to say.

"I've done horrible things. You don't even know." He tried to reason.

"I'm as much as a sinner as you. All sin is equal in God's eyes."

"I'm pretty sure I'm a little worse." He said walking away, but I followed.

"It doesn't matter if you've killed people Justin. I've lied before, therefore, we are both equally sinners." He stopped walking and tensed up when I said killed. I wonder why.

"Okay, can we not talk about this anymore?" He asked. I heard the anger in his voice although his face doesn't show it. I sighed as I decided to let it go, even though I really want to continue this conversation.

"Sorry." I mumbled walking past him into his bedroom.

Justin's POV [FINALLY LOL]

"Sorry." Nicolette mumbled and pushed past me, going to my room. I groaned and thought. Maybe her being away from me will be good. I don't know why I'm having these thoughts now but I am.

What if we're separated for a long time?

What if we lose feelings for each other?