He's Just... Dangerous

Chapter 28

Justin's (Jason) Pov

I felt my heart break into millions of pieces. I couldn't take my eyes off of Nicki though. Caitlin saw me staring and smacked her lips, sitting on my lap.

"Why do you keep looking over there? I'm right here ya know." She ran her hands through my hair.

"Sorry, just distracted a little." Caitlin smiled and got off me, laying back down on her towel.

"Hey Jay?" She called me. I gave her my attention and she threw a bucket of water at me. She started laughing and got up, running. I laughed and ran after her. Frequently she would look back at me, and try her best at running faster. She was almost as fast as me, but eventually I caught up. I swept her up in my arms and immediately ran for the ocean. She laughed along with me, as I quickly made my way in the water. We were about mid waist deep, and I was about to throw her.

"No, please Jay! N-" I threw her in and stood back. She came back up, spitting water at me from out of her mouth. She started splashing at me, and I did it back. She put her hand back behind her to move, but I heard her scream. She started freaking out and flailing around in the water. She gasped and jumped on me, trying her best to stay out of the water.

By this time, she was up on my shoulders, still freaking out, not daring to let go. I tried to question her actions, but I couldn't understand her.

"Caitlin, slow the fuck down! What is wrong?!" I said quietly to her. She took a few breaths and calmed down a bit.

"When I went to move back my hand slapped down on something smooth and slimey. I felt something graze or sting my leg, and it really hurts." She rubbed her leg.

"What was it?"

"I don't know, it was grayish, but a little see-through." I thought of a jellyfish.

"Could it have been a jellyfish?" I asked her.

"I don't know! But my leg really hurts." I walked back to shore, with her still on my shoulders, and set her down on the towel. I took a look at her leg and it was red and a little bit puffy.

I really wanted to laugh at her, because she was just overreacting about it, but I didn't. I rubbed some sunscreen on it and kissed her cheek.

"You're alright babe." I said. She smiled and hugged me.

"Jay?" She's asked. I looked at her and she started talking.

"I have a confession to make." She smiled at me.

"Oh my goodness, this is really embarrassing, but I have a huge crush on you." She smiled and touched my face.

"I've liked you a long time now, and I just thought this was the right time to tell you." I was shocked. I didn't know what to say.

"I like you too." Lies.

"Really?" She perked up.

No.

"Yes." I smiled.

"Omg, I really wasn't expecting this to happen. I didn't know you liked me too." Because I don't.

"I do, you're a very beautiful person and I love your personality."

Lies. Well, the second part. She's actually a bitch. Sorry not sorry.

"Thanks Jay. I love your personality too." She blushed. Okay then...

"Well, Caitlin-" Don't do it Justin.

"Would you-" Come on Justin.

"Like to-" Think of Nicolette.

"Be my girlfriend?" (AT THIS MOMENT JUSTIN KNEW.... HE FUCKED UP) God dammit Justin. I faked a smile to her. She blushed harder and hugged me.

"Yes, I would love to be your girlfriend." The day was soon over, and we went home. She went to her house and I went to mine. I sat in my room and began to cry.

I kissed her, but felt no emotion. I hugged her, but felt no emotion. I kiss Nicolette, I feel everything. I hug Nicolette, I feel everything.

But I have to get over her. She obviously is with Nick. Even though I want to kill him. She's happy. Even though I want to kill myself.. she's happy. So I'm happy. I need to stop with Nicolette. I've had a crush on her even since I've seen her. Frequently I would see her, but she never noticed me. Nobody really did. Until I showed up on the news. But nobody knew it was me, so I couldn't be identified. Those two innocent people. I didn't know what I was doing, until it was over.

I fled. I fled from the death scene. I killed those two innocent people. They didn't die in a car crash like Nicki said, and somehow believed. No. I killed them. I didn't know they were her parents. I did it for a horrible reason too. I'm a horrible person for doing that to them. I was stupid at the moment, and I'm stupid now.

I'm a complete fuck up. But the reason I killed them... the reason, is the worst part of the situation. They were lesbians. Nicolette had two moms. They were together, and I asked them, with a gun at their heads. 'Are you two homosexual?". The moment they said yes, the bang went off. I can't explain why I did it. I really can't. I can barely forgive myself. But if Nicolette ever found this out, she'd probably kill me herself.

The horror on their faces when I asked them.

The horror on their faces when I put a gun to each of their faces.

I remember almost killing myself when I found out that was her parents. I remember the phase she went through, that year of school. I was 18 in 12th grade, and she was 15 in 9th grade.

I watched her fall in depression, slowly, then all at once. She would cry in school. I watched people bully her for this, and I hated it. It was wrong. I know it was. That was the thing. I liked wrong. I got into drugs, and I joined the gangs. I made enemies, started killing, and gambling money. I turned into a horrible person, but at the same time, I watched over Nicolette.

I still don't know how I'm not dead right now. But I plan to be soon. This is all too much for me. I'll try to go on as long as I can, but I don't know exactly when I'll push myself over the edge, or just have someone else push me. I really don't know.