HeavyDirtySoul

CHAPTER TEN

Are you going to do it or not? We don't have all day.

Hurry up.

I sat in my tree staring at all the bottles of painkillers I could find. I'm going to do it. I will.

Then do it already.

I picked up the first bottle and opened it. I looked into the bottle. It wasn't filled. It didn't need to be. I have more. I pour the contents into my hand and put a couple into my mouth. I quickly swallow and throw some more into my mouth. They were getting harder to swallow but I will do this.

Hurry up. You take fucking forever.

I went to put the rest of the pills in my mouth when i heard my phone ringing. I had dropped my phone on the way up and didn't bother grabbing it. I couldn't tell who was calling but i didn't care. It didn't really matter anyways.

Do it.

"Shut up." I finally speak up.

Don't tell me to shut up.

Do it.

"No!" I don't know where the sudden burst of anger came from but I scream and throw the pills in my hand. They go flying into the nearby bush and disappear in the foliage.

Wow, just because you're a waste doesn't mean you need to waste everything in your path. Now grab some more fucking pills and get this over with you useless piece of shit.

I wiped away the tears that I had just come to realize were falling and opened the other bottle. This one was full. It was meant for Madison when she sprained her ankle playing soccer. She never took any so I think it's okay that I have these.

DO IT ALREADY.

"Stop yelling at me!" I cried out. I tipped the bottle into my mouth and poured as many pills that could fit into there. Let me tell you, chewing pain killers doesn't taste very good. "I wish I brought water." I whispered to myself.

Stupid.

"Stop please."

Worthless.

"Please."

Waste of space.

"Just shut up!" I yelled. "I can't take this! I can't live like this anymore! Why can't you just leave me alone? Why can't I be happy!? Why?"

You don't have a reason to be sad. People have it worse than you but you don't seem to realize that. You're too self-centered to realize your "best friend" has it worse than you. Josh was raped. What happened to you? Oh yeah, nothing!

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm so sad all the time. I'm so goddamn sorry okay!"

"Tyler Joseph!" I heard someone yell and I almost fell out of the tree. I looked down to see Josh climbing up to me.

"No! Go away! Please Josh, just go away. Leave me alone, you'll never have to deal with me again just let me do this. Please go away." I cried out.

"No Tyler I can't let you do this! I'm here for you! I love you Ty, you're my best friend! Please don't do this!"

Climb. Climb higher! Get away from him.

I grabbed all my pill bottles and put them in my backpack. "How did you even find me!?"

"You weren't at home or the bridge. This is the only other solution."

You're so goddamn predictable.

I quickly wiped my eyes and started to climb. Josh wasn't even half way up yet because he didn't climb as much as me but I didn't want him catching up to me.