POTION OF LOVE

47. 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧

The sound of a spoon clicking against the plate is the only sound that occupies the silent room. As I sat along with Sonia and Maya on a low table set in my room. The room was literally in warm lights yet my heart felt cold.

Everyone was having their dinner downstairs but I couldn't make myself join them. It was petty of me, maybe.

When Lucas helped me out of the maze, I was relieved thinking I was safe and my paranoid thoughts didn't come true. However, by the time we came out, everyone was already waiting. Especially Kavya who showed her annoyance openly.

‘Itni deer kardi Jasmine? Kab se intezar kar rahe the hum’
[Translation - Why so slow, Jasmine? We have been waiting for so long]

‘Tujhe itna sa bhi raasta yaad nahi raha kya?’
[Translation - You can't even remember a small way out?]

I brushed those comments off, understanding that she was waiting for a long time and the frustration would increase. I apologized to her and everyone else too. I felt even more bad after that.

But the breaking point was when Kavya commented that I faked getting lost so Lucas would come to save me? I didn't understand where she got that. How could she even think like that about me?

It felt like daggers coming from the girl I spent my whole childhood with. We were in each other's new experiences, bad or good. Yet those words.

I ended up deciding to have dinner alone. I didn't wanna see her face. I was holding grudges again even though I shouldn't be, this was one of the reasons why I started to dislike Lucas. I jumped to conclusions without knowing the whole context.

I should talk to her first instead of escalating the matter.

Maya and Sonia followed me up in silent support. We all served the food on our plates and brought it here. I finish my plate and keep it on the table, before leaning back to rest myself against the bed frame.

“You okay?” Maya finally asks, breaking the quiet atmosphere.

I nod in response “Yeah, just needed a moment”

“Kavya di always says stupid stuff” She adds, “She said I wouldn't score well in boards but I did. She doesn't think before speaking”

I smile at her words “I know, it's just weird. I feel like I am over assuming things. Am I being sensitive?”

Maya reaches out for my arm, giving it a gentle squeeze “It wasn't your fault. You got lost and luckily Lucas found you. Her comments weren't right and feeling sensitive isn't bad or a weakness. You can feel that way”

“Yeah, everyone has their weakness” Sonia adds quickly “It's not bad. Kavya di should also apologise to you!”

“Don't feel like it's your fault, Jasmine. You already apologised and we all knew you were conflicted to go but we pressured you” Maya assures