POTION OF LOVE

36. 𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐧 𝐁: 𝐉𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐲

I  knew Kavya was coming but I didn't expect her older brother - Kabir Sharma. He was always around Kavya. Since birth if I say truthfully. Our fathers are best of friends and that led to Kavya and my friend.

Sisters from different misters

We experienced almost everything together. First day of school, first success and failure. It was fine until we finished 12th - parting our ways totally across the world. While she went to America, I came to Australia.

While we talked through text and calls, gradually we both got busy with our own lives. However, I was excited to see her again. Finally connect with her and share everything that happened.

It was planned that the first week we will explore Udaipur and then the next two weeks will just be the wedding preparations and ceremonies.

I totally didn't expect Kabir to tag along. When was it? Maybe when we were in high school I developed a crush on him? It was stupid but when I image back then Kabir was really good looking and popular for his talent in cricket.

He knew it, he noticed it. How I would steal glances at me, treat him like royalty whenever he came home and do all those stupid things. But didn't confront me and I always kept quiet - I didn't have the courage to confess.

Kavya always teased me about it but maybe she thought it was so serious that she tried to set him up with me but our ages were different.

This continued till I went to college and Kabir started dating.

I didn't get sad or jealous about it. That's when I understood I may have had a crush on him but it wasn't love.

Now it's clear that I didn't love him. When he came and met me, when I hugged him - it was so simple.

Nothing like how I feel around Lucas

How his presence makes my heart race and the realization has been dawning upon me for a few days and it just hit me last night.

I layed in my bed for hours, thinking about every moment that happened between us. From him throwing that cake at me till me jumping on him.

Our bickering, the constant comebacks, the misunderstandings. Then, those moments slowly turned into more - I don't know why I didn't notice. Or I didn't want to notice.

How would I? I don't even know what it means. What's it like to like or even love someone?

Liam ones mentioned that Lucas expresses through his words rarely and I thought it's true until we got closer. He not only expressed his feelings through words but actions too.

I was just blind

He looked me with that mixture and intensity and softness that made my heart leap.

What I thought were caterpillars were actually a bunch of butterflies that fluttered in joy when he was around.

I was so overwhelmed last night that I called Stella. It was midnight for me but it was four am for her and she still picked up the call.