Deadly - Poetry

Confession

Yeah I know
I'm a big mess
And it's hard for me
But I'm trying to confess

People look at me and see
They like the wall I put up
To cover the real me

But I have my demons
And you saw them all
God I can remember
How you made me feel so small

You were good to me
But I just ran away
Guess I was too scared
To let you in and play

I might look brave
I might look crazy
But I am always afraid
That people might hurt me

And I sound insensible
For I try not to feel
I don't think I was ever in love
Was this even real?

We used to be best friends
But it became something more
And boy I tried to love you
But I just made you sore 

So no I never loved you
I just found it nice that you loved me
I didn't enjoy your company
I liked to see you fight for mine

You deserved so much better
Than what I had to give
Guess now that doesn't matter
I'm sorry I had to leave

Yeah I was the bitch who broke your heart
You can blame me all you want
But you knew me from the start
We weren't meant to last a month

And I'm so sick of playing perfect
I hope you understand
What did you really expect?
I'm not what you command

I'm sorry you couldn't change me
But don't even get me started
Never thought you cared this much
I'm sorry I left you broken hearted