Deadly - Poetry

A little death for the living

Would you be willing to
Kill me
and
Bury me in the holy land I once ran on
Wrap your hands around my neck
And drain me
Of everything you love
In my gentle ways
There is always some
Aggressiveness

My touch is poisonous
And my hands are cold
nearly dead
I cannot remember a moment where they could've been prettier than this
Would you hold my corpse and dance to the music
Beg the world to bring me back
Because if music can't do it
Nothing will

What words will you spit out at my funeral?
Would you leave my grave flowerless
Empty and sad
Tragic, even
Whatever the description, the ending is the same
You won't cry
Of that I'm sure
But will forever wonder my reasons
I thought I could maybe try hard
And make some art
Worth missing when I'm gone
But all that's left are lines connected by pure chance
And talent wasted
Shattered
Stepped on

The angel of death came to kiss me away but I told him no one can kiss me but you
So dance with me while there's time
And before I start thinking again
Before I realize how mad I truly am
Sit me
I'm your doll
You can paint my hair with the colors in the sky
Let us watch the world burn tonight
Let me freeze and tell me you cannot remember a single moment I could have been prettier
I will scream to the horizon that I hate this life with such a passion my heart beats louder than my words
Because my words
My words are
Bullshit
The majority at the very least
Would you be willing to shut me up
Lock me up if you must
My heart beats too fast sometimes I think I might
Die
There's this insane freedom in I don't care
There's this moment of clarity in a mad man's head
When we all stand really still
Waiting for the sky to fall

I asked the stars if they liked me
But it seems that they're avoiding me
Instead the moon teaches me
About loneliness
And the beauty
Of slowly dying miles away from those you love
There's none

I told you to make the rain fall
But I've realized you're just as useless
And powerless
As the rest of us
I wish you could have told me that before I started talking
Still you are beautiful

I suppose I will miss you at some point in my after life

But for now tell me goodbye
I'll wave for I can't speak
I can't cry
I can't feel

Let me fall alone
This time the stars will come
I'll think about those days we spent running over water, the ocean soaking our shoes
If I may, I will smile
You will always be summer nights and soft ice cream
City lights and gasoline

Grab my hands
Your eyes look pretty when you cry

I will love you
Forever
You will surely
Forget me

I won't mind