The Little White Fox

Chapter 29

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*Roxys Pov*
I stared at the ceiling for a few minutes before turning to my side to try getting some sleep, but the more i turned the more sad thoughts flowed through my mind.
I cant stand why Sage doesnt get how much ive been through.
Does he even care about my feelings, and actions with out him thinking im gonna get in trouble in the process?
Why do i even deserve to live here? I absolutely hate the way i feel when im alone.
I kept thinking that he didnt love me, and that he was probably planning on leaving. Or maybe he was cheating and thats why he got over reactive when i made him breakfast, because i might have cheated.....
I cryed on my pillow for about 10 minutes before realizing my pillow was soaking wet.
I flipped the pillow and turned again trying to sleep, but i just couldn't.
Ive been through so much shit.
Rape, murder, school with bullies, depressed before my parents died, how much i argued with them to not make me go to counciling. Why do i deserve this paradise of a home, with an amazing mate, and a loving dad that adopted me after my parents were killed.
Why?
I kept asking in my head.
I blocked communication with everyone but Ameris, who was quiet in the back of my mind curled up in a ball crying as well.
We felt Sage and his wolf reach out to us, but we just told him we were having trouble sleeping.
I lied.
I lied to my mate.
I felt my dark thoughts grow deeper and more active in my head.
I got up and walked to the bathroom and looked up in the mirror.
"You are 'beautiful' worthless." In my mind u said beautiful, but it came out as worthless.
"You are 'strong' weak"
"You will 'win' lose this fight soon."
I kept thinking about the words i had said out loud.
'Worthless, weak, and lose,' and i kept repeating it.
'yeah,' i spoke to Amber my wolf, 'This is all i will ever be'
I got dressed in a dark blue pants, black shirt, and a black zip up hoody on, with a dark blue backpack and walked outside.
I had told one guard i was leaving and to give me his word he would not tell anyonw i was leaving. And a guard name Patrick swore he wouldnt tell any other soul.
The other guards were still training so i went out the back.
I kept the wolf guard that knew i was out on alart and open mind link while everyone was blocked but Sage.
I ran in human form for about a mile before stripping down and placing the cloths in the backpack, and shifting.
It felt good to shift again that day.
I ran for about 12 miles before stopping by a stream and resting on a rock.
I heard a protective growl from behind me, and i jumped out of my fur when i turned around to see a huge black and gray mix wolf standing powered over me.
I can sense his higher power so i bowed as best i could in fox form.
"Get changed!" The wolf spoke harshly as i stood up and walked behind a tree to change and hearing loud popping noises coming from me and the tree a few trees down.
I walked back out with my hood up just to be safe, and the guy who was barking orders at me, was now a very muscular tall blacj haired man who still signaled higher power.
"Who are you, and what are you doing on my packs land?" The man spoke harshly again.
"I am Roxy, Luna of the Full Moon Pack, i was on a secret run, and didnt realize u was on another packs land sir." I spoke clearly and full.
"Well Luna of Full Moon Pack, i am Skylar, Alpha of the Moon Clan Pack. I have done some work with your Alpha, Sage, for training ideas and teaming up for self defense.
I heard you guys got attacked a few weeks back. We didnt hear about it for thw next few days, but we hoped you were alright." Alpha Skylar spoke less harsh when i told him who i was.
"You need to go back to your mate, im sure he is worried sick about you."
"He would have mind linked me, and im kind of not in the right mood to go back right now, i just needed some time away from there. I am also sorry for entering your pack territory without promition." I spoke as i sat on thw rock i was on, and hung my legs off the egde. There wss a few feet off the water, so i was not getting wet.
Alpha Skylar sat next to me.
"So, i can tell you have beed through alot. I have time, do you want to rant on me to let off some steam?" He asked nicely.
Skylar looked similar to me but his eye color was like my moms, forest green, mine are like my dads, ocean blue. His hair was black like my dads, and spiked up. While his nose was so similar to both my parents.
We talked for a long long time about who eachother are, and how we grew up.
He was grown up in a foster home and when he turned 17, the didnt realize he was a wolf, so the kicked him out of the house. He soon found his home, and worked u ok to being second in command, but when the previous Alpha died and had no children, he became the Alpha he is today.
I told him all my stories and past.
His stories of growing up were so mature, while mine were me growing up with depression practically.
I told him about my mate and he told me about his.
We talked for about 3hours before Sage mindlinked me.
"Hold on Skylar," i laughed and started talking to Sage.
*a few seconds later*
'Oh no,' i said through mind link and out loud.

A/N:
YAY! Omg. This only took me forever!
But there ya have it!
I know you guys arw mad about the cliff hanger, but we can make it till nect chapter.....
Anywho, time for a game? Ish :)

Next chapter i am dedicating the chapter to some one. Its for a random selection of votes and comments.
Im doing to dedications.
One on a random voter, and one on a random comment.
May the odds forever be in your favor :) sorry for the hungergames quote :) had to.
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