Change Me

Chapter three

To describe the bitter feeling I had the next day, required me to lay down the entire time. I had no idea why I felt like this. Ever since last night when he drove off, my heart had been ripped out.

The question kept on recurring in my mind. Why do I feel so empty? Last night I was to scared to go with him on a date. Yes, it still crept me out that I dreamed about him, but today, I can’t stop thinking about him. I didn’t even get his number! How stupid would it have been of me If I called him today? I would sound desperate and lonely. He can call first. His whole mantra changed when he left last night. I wonder why? He was so romantic and then Lorinda had to be there to ruin the moment when we got home! I swore loud and mother yelled from down stairs.

“A lady doesn’t swear!” Her perfectly articulated voice irritated me. I will swear if I have to, I don’t care. They didn’t ask about Darius. I wouldn’t either, last night was magical.

He did let me go before things turned serious. I felt sad and depressed. He did magical things last night. I wanted more, but I couldn’t take it.

“Yes mother.” I replied. I will not be that way with my children one day.

I was dying inside. It’s like Darius and I had a bond and now it was broken.

It has been a week since my date with Darius. Since then, he hasn’t called. I assumed he was busy because he went away. Doing who knows what. I am losing my mind day by day. He didn’t bite me. It was just the pain of the tattoo that my mother is still unaware off. I still don’t plan on showing it to her. Lorinda knows and as far as I am concerned, she’s the only one who’s going to know about it.

I swiped mascara on my long lashes and looked at myself in the mirror. The make-up covered my dark circles and a moisturiser made my skin glow again. I have no idea what’s happening to me. I need to live. I need to start living. The hoot of Lorinda’s town car came from outside and I knew it was my cue to go. I went downstairs, mother and father had already left to go to the theatre.

Where am I going? To my eighteenth birthday party, hosted at Lorinda’s house. She specifically picked out my wardrobe. A deep blue metallic dress. It covered till mid thigh with a belt around my waist. It was a very, very low V cut. She matched some bulky arm bands and a thin necklace that she gave to me on my seventeenth birthday. My hair was straightened. I was ready to start living. Why did he have such a big effect on me? He troubled my mind and I would like to forget all about him. It was my birthday and no one’s going to ruin it.

Crowds covered Lorinda’s extremely big home. Some were drunk, passed out and others still sober for a little while. It was only eight. A huge three tier birthday cake stood in the kitchen. It was baby blue with black stars. Music pumped and vibrated through the house. This was not my kind of party, but hey! When life hands you lemons, buy tequila! The first shooter handed to me was Strawberry kisses. I drank it in a wisp and it hit my chest with a thud. Everybody laughed at me and whit in the hour... I was drunk.

I sat by the pool, all alone. The party was still very much alive and I had a big pink drink in my hand. I sat on the rim of the pool with my legs in the water. I drank happily on and gazed at the sparkling water. It was so pretty. I bend forward but it was too much for my drunken state of mind and fell in. The cool bliss of the water hitting my body.

For a moment I enjoyed the coolness of the water on my warm skin. Though in my mind the water seemed all sparkly, I had breathed in and the ice water burned my lungs and throat. I panicked. My body feeling like heavy lead, pulling me deeper and deeper into the depths of the pool. I panicked. My brain became numb and my muscles tranquil. This was it. I was truly going to drown and not die in the arms of the man I love. Love? How could it be possible?

A black figure pulled me up. The hardness of the pavement hitting my back and head cruelly. Large hands pumped my chest. Water spat from my mouth like an angry volcano. I sat up with a hand supporting my back.

Bright blue eyes met mine. They were captivating in every sense. His black hair all wet from my rescue mission. His lips were light pink shade and his skin ivory snow.

“Why did you drink so much, Bella?” He asked with his accent strong. Tears pilled in my eyes as I thought how near death I had been.

“Don’t cry.” He whispered and picked me up as thou I was his bride.

“Where are you taking me?” I asked and slightly sobering.

“Shh Bella.” He said and looked in front of him. I looked at his angelic features. Somehow he’s beauty touched my mind and sent me spiralling into a slumber I couldn’t run away from.

A fizzing sound came from my side. It was essential and drank it quickly. I was back in my room and the clock beeped 5 pm. Had I been out so long? I stood up, again in other clothes. I was in my favourite sleep wear. I stood up and immediately got in my shower. It felt good! My head was pounding harder than the streaks of water against my back. I was feeling slightly refreshed. My mother stormed in just as I was dressed.

“Thank goodness you’re alright!” She said and hugged me.

“Why?” I asked not seeing the obvious.

“A man brought you home last night! A young one. He said his name was Dimirti and he found you at the party, passed out.” She said still holding onto my fragile body. My mother was always protective over me. The images of last night came in a rush back to me. Me sitting at the pool then almost drowning and a guy who kept on calling me Bella? What was his problem?

“Mom, I am fine.” I said and escaped from her bear grip.

“Look at those circles underneath your eyes!” She said and put her hand on her mouth.

“I just need sleep.” I  said and looked at her.

“I hope you enjoyed your big day?” She said excitingly.  I didn’t answer. I don’t know how I felt about yesterday.

Her eyes caught something that I didn’t want her to see. Her pupils enlarged and a slow breath came out.

“Why did you have to get a demonic mark? Didn’t I taught you the right things in life?”

“Oh mother ...” I said and closed my eyes.