You Shouldn't Have Fallen For Me (BEN Drowned love story)

Chapter 32

Talia's POV

I woke up pretty early in the morning. I saw a dim light show from beneath the curtains.

I broke away from BEN who was still silently sleeping and got out of bed.

I touched my side and felt a twitch of pain. I had almost forgotten I had gotten stitches on my side when Toby struck me with his hatchet.

I was about to go into the kitchen to make myself breakfast when I heard a noise behind me.

BEN had just woken up. The right side of his hair was a mess and his hat had fallen off. He rubbed one of his eyes and greeted me with a good morning.

He usually never woke up this early, but I guess miracles never cease.

We both walked into the kitchen, and he sat down while I poured cereal for myself.

"Want any?" I asked him pointing to the cereal.

He shook his head. There was silence for a moment as I searched for a spoon.

"Talia." he muttered.

"Yeah," I replied looking back at him after successfully retrieving a spoon.

"I have something to tell you. Well, I guess I have two things to tell you."
he said looking down at the table in front of him.

"What is it?" I asked, scooping the cereal into my mouth.

"So, um, remember when you had the miscarriage with the boy?" he still hadn't looked up.

I swallowed my food, "Yeah.."

"Well, remember when you walked into that library and you found me crying and I said I had something to tell you?"

"Yeah.."

"I've been really wanting to get this off my chest." he said, "I'm the reason he died."

I blinked, "I- what are you talking about? How? I mean, what?" I was confused and my words jumbled and didn't come out like I wanted them to.

The first three months you were pregnant, I wasn't around. You probably remember that. I wasn't around, not because I just didn't want the baby, but because when I was around, all I did was hurt herm."

"I don't understand. What are you saying?" I was starting to panic.

"At that time, Slenderman's goal was to make you his proxy, but when you got pregnant, he knew it would go straight to the kid because that's how it works. So he had a proxy gene in him, which if given too much of it he wouldn't survive for long." he paused, his eyes still never meeting mine even though I was staring at him in shock the whole time. "After drowning, I developed a similar gene. Not the same one, but the same rules still applied. While I was with you, the proxy gene and mine merged and it was too much for him. So it was my fault...I killed him."

I stared at him in awe. I didn't know how to feel, but I guess anger was my first reaction because I walked over to him and slapped him in the face. "Why didn't you just tell me, huh?! Why would you leave without a moments notice and then come back knowing it would hurt him?!" I yelled.

"When you found me, you wanted me to come home so badly, I couldn't say no. And anyway, I missed you. I don't know why I didn't tell you. I'm sorry. I just wanted to keep you safe." His eyes dropped.

"You've been doing a great job of that." I muttered sarcastically. "Wait, how am I still pregnant now, and why did the gender change? And also, why are you still here if you're hurting her?" I backed up.

"I've thought this through already. The reason you're still pregnant was because slender created another baby as a replacement, sort of like if they were twins and one of them died. He definitely wants that baby alive to become a proxy, so he probably just created an immunity, so it wouldn't happen again. They're exactly the same besides the immunity and gender." he explained finally looking up. "The reason your urge to kill faded a long time ago, is because it's flowing into her right now." he said pointing at my stomach.

I really couldn't deal with all this information. I closed my eyes and exhaled, "I want you to go." I said trying to sound calm.

"Tal-" I cut him off, "I said I want you to go." this time, my voice cracked. At this point my head was down and I was just waiting to hear the chair he was sitting in scrape across the floor. I was waiting to hear footsteps. I was waiting to hear the door dramatically slam.

The first two things happened. He scooted the chair back so he could get up, and I heard his light footsteps. I could hear each little thump getting closer and closer to me. "I said I was sorry, Talia."

"I said I wanted you to leave, BEN." I said mimicking his voice.

"Fine," his tone was suddenly a lot harsher, "You don't know, but I've given up everything to be with you. I actually try, you know. My friends, my old way of life, so much of my time. I've been trying so hard for you to love me and I just make one mistake. One damn mistake, and I get shunned. If you want to be like that, then fine. I don't even give a crap anymore." he said angrily.

"I do love you." I mumbled.

"Right," he scoffed, "like anyone could ever love me. Newsflash, I'm a freak. You may have liked me back when we were kids, but I know you just pity me now."

I looked up at him, "It's not like that and you know it."

"It's exactly like that, but apparently I haven't given you enough." his voice went back to a fiery yell.

I matched his tone"What the hell does that have to do with anything? I never said you weren't a good boyfriend or whatever the hell you are. The fact is, you hid something huge from me! I just need time to think, and I never asked you to do all those things for me!"

"You really don't realize what I do for you, do you? If it weren't for me, you would've gotten raped. You may have never asked for help, but I know you wanted it. I'm not a nice person, but I changed that for you. I went soft just so I could protect you. You could've been dead by now, but I've been looking out for you. All my life. I don't remember getting any thank yous."

"Oh yeah, thanks for stalking me for twelve years you obsessed pervert! I can really feel the love. oh wait, that isn't love, that's just fucking creepy."

"Jesus, if I'd known you were this big of a bitch, I wouldn't have saved you."

"If you think I'm that much of a bitch, then why not just leave forever?" we were both still yelling.

"You know what, maybe I will!"

I paused for a moment realizing what I had just set in motion, but I couldn't stop it now.

"It's not like I would care. I never even loved you." I said with a cold heart instantly wishing I could take the lie back.

his face was terrified for a moment, but he quickly hid it with anger once again. He held up his hand like he was gearing to hit me.

I immediately flinched and closed my eyes. I waited for a moment, my eyes still clenched shut. I knew I deserved it. No slap ever came, however. Just a slam of a door.