Bring It Back

No School

I woke up to a bare Cassidy snuggled up to me. I looked around and saw that it was pouring rain. It was flooded pretty much. I turned on the tv and saw that all the roads were closed which meant no school. Thank god because I don't think I'm gonna be able to wake up and Cass won't be able to walk. I smirked at her and stretched my arms. Her hands accidentally slid down to my area and my eyes widened. She shot straight up and rubbed her eyes.

"Oh shit! I wasn't suppose to fall asleep! We're gonna be late for school Shawn!" She yelled jumping out of bed.

"No! It's okay, we don't have school today" I smiled.

She looked outside and exhaled. She laid back in bed with me looking up into my eyes.

"Shawn you okay? You look like you saw a ghost?" She asked worried.

"You uh-" I said pointing down.

"Oh shoot, I'm sorry" she said biting her finger.

"It's okay, I'm okay" I lied.

She looked down and cocked her eyebrow at me.

"Shawn, no you're not" she said.

I shook my head and sighed. She slid down the covers adjusting herself and engulfed me. I moaned gripping the sheets. I ripped off the covers exposing her naked body hovering over mine.

"Cass you don't have too" I said.

"Don't worry, I'll be gentle" she said mimicking me.

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I walked downstairs fully dressed grabbing a muffin off the table my mom must have left for me before she and my dad left for some trip with Aaliyah. I moaned and closed my eyes.

"God! Muffins are so banging!" I yelled.

Cass chuckled walking downstairs taking a bite from it.

"Hey!" I screamed with a mouth full.

She popped it in her mouth and smirked.

"What do you wanna do since we can't go anywhere?" I asked.

She ran across the street covering her head with her hands from the continuous rain. She came back with her rain boots and some sheet music.

"sing" she commanded sitting me on the couch.

I grabbed my guitar and strummed a couple times. I sang Summertime Sadness and she would sway back and forth. I chuckled as she jumped up on the coffee table as I sang loudly. I pulled her down on to the couch pressing my lips on hers. I got a text from my buddy that they were having a party down the street since we didn't have school today or tomorrow. I asked Cass if she wanted to go and she agreed. It was around 7 so we got ready cause it was 4 and it would take us a while to walk there since it was down pouring there. We started heading over there locking our fingers together. She looked so amazing I couldn't help but stare. We walked in and everybody greeted us. We headed over to the drink table and started getting wasted already. I drunkly walked over to Cass who was chatting it up with my friend.

"You're so good looking even from across the room" i slurred holding her shoulder.

She shook her head and smiled.

"What are you guys doing?"

"We were just talking" she replied.

"About?"

"Stuff" he replied.

Oh god here it comes again my anger was boiling up.

"Like what?" I asked Cass who stood there blankly.

"we're going fucking home" I said tugging at her shirt.

We stumbled inside and my temper was rising.

"You're cheating on me aren't you!?" I yelled with a louder voice.

"What the hell?! No!" She said confused.

"Yes you are! Don't fucking lie to me!" I yelled as she pushed up against the wall.

"I'm not" she mumbled.

"You liar!" I yelled slapping her hard across the face.

She trembled and cried falling to the floor. I looked at my hand and gasped. All my sobriety was coming to me. I fell to the wall sliding down tears welling up inside me.

"Cass-"

She scooted away from me and sobbed some more.

"You're just like Wesley" she sobbed grabbing her jacket and running out.

My heart dropped out of my ass. I knew she had some bad times with Wesley and I didn't want to be the reminder of them but my drinking overcame me. What have I done? I thought to myself. I can't believe I let myself do that. I would never hurt a girl in my entire life especially my girlfriend, someone I love. I sobbed into my knees as I felt my heart and soul cracking.

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I woke up from laying on the floor and looked around. I saw a text from Cass on my phone and quickly snatched it.

Baby👑: I can't be with someone who abuses me again. I'm sorry Shawn.

I panicked running over to her house bursting down the door.

"Cassidy!" I yelled.

No sign of her. I began to freak out.

Me: please call me

No answer. I ran home and paced back and forth. I was in tears and so fucking worried. I couldn't contain myself. I wanted to kill myself.

"You're so fucking stupid Shawn!" I yelled to myself slamming my fists into the wall leaving a big indent. I cringed at the sight and grabbed my keys. I looked around and noticed some sleeping pills. I chugged them and felt the effect already. I drove around thinking about pretty much everything. Where the hell would she be? I drove to our spot by the lake and saw her sitting there with her feet hanging off the side.

"Baby?" I asked slowly walking up to her.

She jumped up and stayed where she was.

"You Have no right calling me that Shawn" she said with tear stained cheeks.

I sighed and nodded.

"I'm sorry but I just wanted to say goodbye" I sighed looking at the floor.

"What do you mean?" She asked.

I stood against the edge where rocks hung right below me. The waves crashed against them making them more scarier then I thought. I closed my eyes and held out my hands.

"Shawn!" She yelled grabbing me right when I was about to fall.

She sobbed pulling me to the floor scooting away from edge. My head dropped and she sobbed lifting me up.

"Shawn!" She screamed hugging me tight. "Please"

"I l-love you Cass" I mumbled seeing darkness.

"Fuck, I can smell the medicine on your breathe" she sobbed.

She stuck her fingers down my throat making me gag and throwing up all the pills. She petted my head wiping her hand on her pants. I coughed up everything and gasped for air. She cradled me tightly as the tears dropped on my cheek.

I love you" she sobbed into my chest.