"We're going back to England."
Mick looks at me, waiting for a reaction. As soon as he says it I feel like every bone in my body has been crushed, my heart is pierced and tears well in my eyes. Obviously I knew deep down they couldn't stay here forever, but I never actually imagined them leaving.
"W-when?" I managed to get out.
"In a few days probably. Maybe less ... But it doesn't have to be a bad thing, we can-" he tries to touch my shoulder but I shy away.
"When were you planning on telling me?"
He just stares at me.
"April, none of this was ever supposed to be permanent and you know it. Stop acting like you didn't see it coming."
"Actually I didn't fucking see it coming! I knew you would have to leave at some point but I thought you'd give me a bit of warning!"
"What did you want me to say? If I told you before it would have ruined the time we had left."
"So you were just going to spring it on me at the last second?! You weren't even going to tell me today, were you? It's only because Joe brought it up, you weren't even going to tell me!' I say again, my voice getting louder. I know I'm probably being unreasonable, but at this point I'm too upset to see sense and all I'd rather shout in front of him than cry.
"Yeah because you'd just get upset about it wouldn't you?" I can tell he's trying really hard not to start screaming and punch me in the face or something. I'm not even bothering to stay calm. All my pain is turning into anger, and I'm taking it all out on him.
"April, you can just come with us" he says it as if it's the most reasonable thing in the world.
"Oh yeah, I'll just travel across the fuckin country and sneak into all your gigs, yeah?!"
"Yeah! Why not?"
"Mick, it's not that simple! Everything I've ever had is here! I can't stay in England forever, you said it before, you guys are constantly on the road and you've got nowhere to go! I belong here." I say it again; "Everything I have is here..."
"Everything except me," he mutters. "But obviously that's not a good enough reason for you," he says and storms off. Why is he making this so difficult?! He says it as if it's so reasonable for me to just leave my home and everything I've ever known! I let out a cry of frustration, kicking the rocks on the pavement.
"I fucking hate you!" I scream as I watch him walk away.
