Pretty Vacant

Bittersweet happiness

Johnny's head ached.
Oh, what did he do?
He hurt his best friend, he hurt his brother.
Well, it was Kaya who did but he should have told Sid in a nicer way yesterday.
Maybe he shouldn't have said anything at all.
Sid had never told him that he liked Kaya but he saw it when Sid looked at her.
He had never looked at a girl like that.
He looked almost fully happy when he looked at her.
Kaya confused him tho.
He could've sworn that Kaya had looked at him the same way.
He had thought Kaya felt the same.
Johnny felt things like that.
But why had she brought Kyle home?
Maybe because Sid didn't do anything but look at her.
But something, something really bothered him about Kyle.
Maybe it was his eyes.
They had something crazy, but not the good kind of crazy.
More like sick.
Johnny couldn't quite describe it.
He took a huge sip of his tea and then went outside to watch steve and Paul play hide and seek in the little garden.
He chuckled.
They were like little kids sometimes.
Especially when Steve couldn't find Paul, started to moan about it and said he was playing unfair because he "hid wrong".
Johnny couldn't help but to burst out in laughter sometimes and it didn't make it better that they glared at him everytime he did.
What a bunch of little idiots.

•

Sid slowly opened one eye but closed it again fast because the bright sun was blinding him.
"Fuck", he mumbled to himself and got up.
He stumbled to his little bathroom with both of his eyes closed and took a shower.

Sid was already feeling better when he pulled on new clothes and did his hair properly.
He neatly cleaned the mess he left on the floor and opened his window to let out the druggy smell.
Slowly he went downstairs and left the house quietly.

He had been walking down the streets for who knows how long when he finally found a little hotel.
He had passed houses and gardens and later only fields for many miles until he eventually arrived here.
He just wanted to be far away from Kaya and that other guy he hadn't even seen yet.
Just the thought of him and Kaya made his heart ache and his mind spin.
But he told himself it was better like this.
That dude was probably a thousand times better than him.

•

Kaya walked through the town next to Kyle.
"You know uhm...", he suddenly broke the silence, "If I asked you out would you say yes?".
He didn't dare to look up.
Kaya smiled.
"I guess I would. Why?"
"Will you go on a date with me Kaya?", he smiled at her brightly.
Instead of answering she pulled him close and kissed him.
"I'll pick you up tomorrow night.", with those words he left her.

Kaya unlocked the front door just to run into Johnny.
"Oh...hey", he shrugged his shoulders excusing.
"Wowowow did the cbgb give you free Ramones tickets?"
He grinned at her.
She grinned back idiotically: "nope".
"Did Mick Jagger call you and invite you over...?!"
"Nope."
"Then what the hell plastered that grin into your face?"
"I'm gonna have a da-haaaaate", Kaya grinned even more.
"Oh with that Kyle guy?", Johnny seemed a little dissapointed.
"Yeeea...what about him...?", she furrowed her eyebrows.
"Nothing. Just be careful, okay?", Johnny opened the door and left Kaya behind confused.
What did he mean?
Kyle was a good guy, wasn't he?
Her thoughts drifted to Sid and made her heart ache.
No. She wouldn't think about him now.
If he didn't want her she'd have to accept it.
She took a deep breath and went to the kitchen to get a drink.

Kaya drank her vodka in one sip.

She'd have to accept it.