The Doctor's Daughter

Chapter 10-The Cyberman and I

From the beginning of my stay in the void I was not alone. The Cyberman who had unluckily crashed me and caused me to be stuck in here was with me all the time. For some reason he had held me instead of killing me. I didn't realize I was in company at first. But things began to get clear.
"What do you want from me?!" I whispered very unfriendly.
The Cyberman seemed to be in a Stand- by mode because it took it some time to activate.
"Mary Tyler woke up." Said the Cyberman. I knew that voice from somewhere.
"How can you possibly know my name?!" I was confused. It was just a random-
"Because you told me."
That German accent! It was Gunther. But not Gunther the proud fanboy. Look what they turned him into.
"Gunther... Is this really you?"
I felt the tears burning on my cheeks. This was too much for me. I wanted to be alone. But if you were in an infinite nowhere, would you let go of the only company?
"Yes. The upgrade was successful."
It was all my fault. I should've defended him. And not lying on the roof of the elevator like a helpless potato.
"I am so sorry." I sobbed. He felt so cold in that metal armoury. It wasn't him anymore.
"Words of compassion are not necessary." He replied.
It made me angry. "I'm going to turn you back into a human! We will find a way out and we will get you back the way you were!" I screamed.
"No."
"What do you mean 'no'?" I asked.
"I don't feel anything. It is better than worrying. It is better than being sad. It is better than being like you. Emotions destroy you. They won't destroy me and guarantee perfect effiency." Explained Gunther. Or what was left of him.
"Efficiency? For what? Here is nothing! We are nothing! The only future is out of here. And I will find a way out. And a way to turn you into a human again." I sobbed.
Everywhere around us was nothing. It felt terrible. We were flying in a huge nothing. It was literally hell. And it was forever because time didn't exist inside this void.
"It is impossible."
Gunther told me exactly what the logic side of me screamed since I was here. Of course. There was no way out. And there was no way to turn Gunther back. But I was so angry. It was not my nature to give things up so easily. There is always a solution.
"What are those lights?" I asked. Because they were everywhere around us. I didn't see them before.
"Cracks in the borders of the parallel universes caused by travels. Reality is shining through. But the cracks are getting fixed by the universe itself." Explained Gunther. He probably got an upgrade on every information known to Cybermen.
"Wait. That means we can possibly get through one of these cracks! It's our one way ticket out of here!" I screamed. Hope was a strange thing.
"Impossible. We can't find the borders of an infinite room."
I gave up at first.
"Maybe I can send my father a message on this psychic paper."
But I was getting very tired.
"I need to sleep." I yawned.
Nothingness made me extremely tired.
"Sleep, Mary Tyler. I am holding you."
Even though the Gunther Cyberman had no feelings there was no doubt he liked company.

Mary had an incredible impact on all the people she knew. Of course they could only find out after she disappeared. It's been almost a week now. To be precisely, six days, ten hours and something about fourty minutes. The Doctor knew because all these days he was watching the clock. Tick after tick. And whenever there was a noise coming from the outside, there was this silly hope it was his daughter. But day after day reality made quite clear that Mary was lost. She would never return. Rose didn't talk to him for all this time. And he couldn't bear to talk to her. There were these scenarios in his mind. Where she tells him it's all his fault. Where she hates him.
Where he lost her as well.
Mary could be anywhere. Dead. Trapped in the void. Or maybe, if you're an optimist like the Doctor used to be- alive. Although he wanted to cry and let out all this anger of the past days he promised himself to remain silent. Rose already had enough going through her mind. Anyways, where should he let his anger out? There was no one to blame. Mary? She was just saving herself. Without that the Doctor wouldn't have a daughter to cry about. The Cybermen and the Daleks? Surely, they always interfered and caused problems but it wasn't part of their plan to kill/trap Mary forever. Himself? Probably, because no good father wants to send their kid to war. Some situations are uncomfortable, but they still needed to be done. Was that one of these situations or did he fail? Was there another way?
Is she ever coming back home? Where is she?
After six days, eleven hours and something about twenty minutes, the Doctor lost his self control. Actually, these were one of his darkest days. No parent should lose their child. Scenarios were running through the Doctor's mind- the darkest memories of 900 years mixed up with the disappearance of his daughter. He cried, sobbed and screamed.
"Why are you doing this to me?! This already happened once!"
Old but never forgotten memories came up. But this time the Doctor was not only broken. He also lost everything he believed into. He gave up.
It was a very lonely day. But thirty minutes after his breakdown he heard footsteps. Mary?!
No, it was Rose. Eyes and cheeks red by all the tears that had been cried. They watched each other in silence, both of them stopping the sobbing for a short time. There was nothing they could say to each other. It was even worse, every word has been spoken.
The Doctor was scared that Rose would shove him away when he decided to hug her. But she didn't blame him.
"J- J- Jack and Ianto decided to visit us. They want to help us." Mumbled Rose.
Only now the Doctor realized they weren't alone. The young couple was standing in the door.
"Hello, Jack. Hello Ianto." Said the Doctor to the visitors. There were tears in his eyes. He looked so desperate. Like a fallen hero.