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Part 49

"Dad?" I whisper. Oh my god is this real. Is this really happening? Am i really seeing my real father standing infront of me?

Is this fucking happening?

I look closely at him and look him from up and down. He is looking good,very goodto be correct. His hair is brushed back and i could see some white hair up there, his eyes are still dark brown, he's wearing one of those bluse fancy suits, and he has that smile appear on his face.

Wait, why-why is he here?

I thought i'm meeting stephen the boss? Then, why on earth is he...

Hold up the cow!

Stephen...

My fathers name is Stephen Rivers.

B-but.. That makes him a.... no shitting way!

"Yes, honey. It's me. Wow, you're all grown up now" He said, slipping out his hands from his pockets while i'm still looking at him in confusion written all over my face.

I have tons of question running around my head at the moment. For example :

1. What has been he up to?

2. Where did he go after he leaves?

3. Why did he didn't come back?

4. Why didn't he come and visit?

5. Why is he here?

6. Does he missed us? Me, Calvin, mom?

I am still looking at him with confusion written all over me while he gives me a proud smile or some shit.

"Aren't you gonna say something? I've waited for a good 3 years to see you" He said with a light chuckle at the end. I lick my lip and look down at first and look back up at him.

"I-i'm sorry. I-i'm just very confused right now" I honestly said. He chuckles lightly at me while i hugged my self with my own hands.

Seeing him there, standing in front of me, it seems like seeing a ghost. I mean, my last encounter of him was when he took me to a park, just the two of us. But here, seeing him here, it's like seeing someone you used to know.

"Let's sit down shall we? Then we'll talk" He said, offering me his hand but i shake my head and guied my self to the chair and sat. He sat on the chair which is right beside me, making me feel a bit... giddy.

"I assume you have questions for me" He said, connecting his hands and rested them on his knee. I hesitatedly nodded and take a glance at him.

There is a part of me that says i miss you. And there is also a part of me saying I hate you.

Marvellous isn't it.

"Go on then, we have plenty of time"

I breathe in and finnaly decided to look up and speak up at him. We can't get all the answers with silence.

"I have no idea where to start. Where have you been? What have you been up to? Why didn't you come back? Didn't you miss us? Why didn't you visit?" It blurted out in a not matter tone which i tottaly ashame off. I mean, he is my father who has gone missing for probably 3 years.

He sighs before he answers and lick his lip before opening his lips. "I know that'll be your first questions" he sighs and finnaly speak up.

"You know what, just tell me everything" I said, sighing. I'm just freaking confused right now, so, i guess, i'll hear the story side of him. Mom already told me her side of the story, now i want to know his.