SILENT || JJK FF - 16+ ||

86. Endeavors.?

A day in the heavens is a year of mortal realm, I endured a thousand years of torment, yet in the heavens it passed in just a fleeting moment between hope and despair, back and forth until I grew numb, now I'm nothing but a walking corpse rotting from the inside out?

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For the next few days, you sat in the balcony of the Min family's house, you looked up at the clouds that were gathering and disappearing in the sky, Yoongi held a scarf and cover you.

You didn't react, you have been like this for long period of time, you don't talk, it seems like you don't care about anything else now "Y/n, I know I'm not your biological brother and I couldn't be much in help for you but if you continue to be like this then nothing will change, let's move out of country and leave the past behind, I will sell our old house, I will contact the immigration office."

Namjoon came at this time and Yoongi entrusted you to him and left, at first he wasn't given the chance to meet you but as the time goes and you were just like walking corpse, for the past days Jungkook try to contact you but couldn't get in touch with you and Yoongi asked him to give you times, if he keep poking at your wounds, you will do the worst which made him stopped coming over hoping that you will think about Seol again and go back.

You didn't go out, you ate few, woke up in daze, eat medicine and sleep whenever you wanted, you didn't think about anything else, those things seemed to have gone far away, everything was calm.

Namjoon keep visiting you in this days, he even offered you a lifetime support, talking about the future, either intentionally or unintentionally, he just wanted you to be free from this depression.

You know that Namjoon was the member of the Jeon family and he had approached you because he wanted to return to the Jeon's but Jeon's will not allow him to go back with you.

Jeon Jungkook was a very good example, the people of Jeon's who have anything to do with you will not have a good result.

"Y/n." Namjoon squatted in front of you and looked at you seriously "Years ago, it was Chaewon who made me want to fight for love but it let me down and my ambition was greater than anything else, years later, you are the one who let me put down my ambition."

He deeply hurt a person and pushed you into the hell step by step, what was more terrible was that all your pain made him feel the same, this feeling was like an ant biting one's heart, at first.... it was stinging and then it became more and more painful, if he continue to go on, even if he got that position, he would not be happy because his heart would be completely swallowed by those pain and became just like empty shell.

"Y/n, I won't disturb your peace anymore but let me accompany you, let me take care of you and give me a chance to repair those damages, I can afford to raise you without Jeon's as well."

He hold your hands, your empty eyes moved slightly and looked at man's faint smile, he kissed you on the top of your head, suddenly your eyes started to swell.

------ You sleep after taking a medicine, your phone flashed and you received a new message, you have deleted all the people's contact, only Seol's contact ID you created was on your top list but you are in a bad mood these days, so you didn't go to see your son, you missed him so much and it feels like you have no soul left in your body.

( Y/n, it was too late for me to realized what I did was wrong.... I don't deserve any good things in this life, this guilty was eating me up and I can't rest assured anymore, I hope you will forget my mistake one day and be happy... I wanted to see you but I can't face you anymore, I thought that as long as one day I separated from Hongjoong, I still have a chance to be with Namjoon but he's in love with you now..)