Confessions of A Lovestruck Teenager

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by spicextea

by spicextea

Hi! I hope you're great, I think that we had too long a break. I caved in, reached out—

Ok, that's enough.

It's Saturday! And in the Caribbean, where I live, it means either you're lazing off or hurrying about the capital city.

Fortunately, it's the former for me and I'm terribly bored. So! I thought I'd give you some updates.

1) I'm in my senior year of high school. Unlike the US, this means you're 16 on your way to your 2 years of college before you're shipped overseas for university.
It's a lot of decisions to make so soon but I am pleased to admit I have settle on a major –finally– and will be going to university immediately after high school. This means I'll be one of the youngest people doing Psychology in the university I've chosen.
Originally, I was supposed to come to the States but Tr*mp and his Visa bans on most of the Caribbean thwarted my plans. Anywho!

I will try my hardest anyway to make sure by the time I'm finished with university in 9 years, I can actually make a difference.

2) I'm no longer suffering from crippling writer's block. I had this urge to write. Like... Really write. A sappy love story sounds so ideal right now. I originally began working on this modern fantasy plot when I was offline on an old book I had laying around, which I am keeping VERY close to my heart by the way, but due to recent events, I think something close to a high school to make sounds fitting.

3) My favourite part: I'm somebody's girlfriend! Which is odd because I never make the first move or make an exception for a man... Like... At all. But I guess being far from stereotypical is something entirely expected from me.
Ironically, I'm saying this as if I don't enjoy mainstream pop, have a 'girly' favourite colour and read Wattpad as if it's classic literature. Despite everything I just listed, which can all be countered with the fact that I'm black and also enjoy indie rock, I hate pink and I actually have classic literature in my ever expanding book collection, I am painfully odd.
Anyways, I do have a boyfriend and I find it funny that I actually yearn to say it and don't say 'I have a man' or a 'bf' or go around yelling it from the hills.

Truth is, I rarely date and people find it amusing as if my dating life is a reality show (It might as well be, the drama that usually goes down is insane). So staying true to my word, only four people I know know who this boyfriend of mine is (not even my closest friends I told about my last relationship a year ago). I'm not adding him to our group chat or talking incessantly about him, it's just quiet. Just how I like it.

I could spend AGES talking about him, truly, but I feel like y'all would kill me. I am just as sappy as the books I read on here, despite my feigned nonchalance.

4) I miss you guys, but I don't know how consistently I can be online. Last year of high school means CSEC Examinations and one Google search tell you how much pressure is on me right now. Thankfully, my boyfriend understands, he's been there and done that already so when May-June rolls around he won't be in a panic when I go into "ultimate study mode: Level INFINITY!!!" and ghost everybody. I have a lot of pressure on me as one of the smartest kids on both sides of the family and I'm not one who likes to disappoint. As of now I'm keeping my grades up and I pray that it stays that way into the the exam room on May 5th.

5) I plan on making a FULL comeback to the writing scene. Just because I'm doing one of the most important examinations of my life, doesn't mean I'm gonna bail. This summer, especially from June, I will be ensuring I get my fill of that writing adrenaline...! Right after I take a week of rest. And Fridays at the university I'm going to have no classes. I'm freeing myself of my procrastinating streak and by then Fridays will be my designated writing time and Saturday nights will be my top-down binge nights if I'm not on call, debriefing my entire week to some poor soul. Rest assured that my last bum will return to revamp and update my page. You'll know when I'm back when I create a new theme. ;)

— Spice