My Pretend Paradise

No Answers

I know I can't really go to the ocean but I drive in that direction anyway. I get to the beach and am tempted to just climb the fence. I really want to feel the sand squish between my toes and the salty breeze in my hair but I can see all of the guards posted along the fence and know that I would be killed before I even made it to the fence yet alone over it. I decide the best thing I can do is walk along the fence and just look at the beach which is of course torture but it's better than nothing. Up ahead there seems to be more guards than usual and as I get closer I can see why. There is a massive hole blown in the wall. I remember hearing about it on the news but never really gave it much thought. Protesters blow up the wall quite a lot so it wasn't really anything new. It is weird that there are so many guards usually they just start rebuilding it. Once I'm standing across from it I realise why. The chunks of the wall are all over the beach. If anyone on our side of the wall had blown it up the pieces would have gone in to the ocean which means it was someone on the outside who blew it in. We hear all the stories about the wars that are raging on but they are on lands so far away that sometimes you forget that's its happening. I know that I really shouldn't be down her now and run back to my car. I am about to turn over the engine when everything goes blue.

I'm in the ocean and my lungs feel like they are being squeezed by tight metal bands. The water all around me is dark now and I can't tell which way is up or down. I can feel the dark trying to take me and part of my body wants to let go and stop fighting. Just as I am about to stop fighting I feel a surge of water move me up, I think. I am right because soon I break through the surface. I'm so close to the wall now but it's almost completely up. It would probably be better if I did just drown. I won't be able to survive out here for a whole year and what will dad and Jas think. Oh god I can't leave them I must get back, I have to get back. I feel the water behind me. It doesn't feel calm or serene anymore. It feels like a storm or tidal wave full of power. I feel my frustration and anger flow through the water and back into me. We are one. I feel the water in every part of my soul. I know it will help me. I know I can get home. I let the power of the water grow. I let the water surge and wash over me. Just when it feels like I won't be able to control it anymore I direct the water at the wall willing the wall to come crashing down. A small fissure forms in the surface. And the water doesn't let up it just keeps thrashing the wall. CRACK. More cracks form along the wall but I can tell it's not quite enough. I pull the water back behind me and let it surge and pulse until it feels like the water could swallow up the entire country. With the last of my strength I throw the water at the battered and cracked wall. The water breaks a hole in the wall and carries me through with it. Terrified but also ecstatic I won't be one of the lost souls who gets stuck outside the wall, I start running towards where I know Jas and dad are waiting. My legs start to feel like lead and my head makes me think I'm spinning. I know I should just sit for a minute and rest. I am suddenly lying on the ground and don't remember making a conscious decision to stop.

"You have power Rose, but will it be enough"

"he-ll-o"

I look up and down the beach and can't see anyone.

"A great task awaits you, you must help the fallen, this is your destiny"

"Who is speaking? What is happening?"

"All will be answered in due time for now rest Rose and forget"

"Forget what"

And that's when the world goes blue again.

What the hell did I just see? Am I really the one who caused that massive hole in the wall? Could I really have done that? And who was talking to me? What the hell did she mean by the fallen? Damn it I thought I wanted to know what happened to me in those four hours but now I just have more questions than answers. The street lights glare in my eyes meaning that I have been asleep for some time. I have 20 missed calls on my phone and now I am in for it when I get home. I decide there is no point in waiting. I start the engine and drive away as fast as I can without bringing attention to myself. This should be an interesting dinner.