The Queen Of Fuck Ups {m.c.}

The Mad Hatter

Michael's Point Of View

"You fucking seem like you think it's fun! If it's so terrible to do then just fucking don't! It's not like it's your fucking job!"

"Yes it is! I have to do this so I can keep everyone in check! If they think I'm weak then I'm dead!"

"Do you want me to believe you have to torture people? It not like you're the fucking queen!"

"Fuck you Calum! If I don't do this I'm dead and so are all of you! You want to know why douchebag? Because I'm the fucking queen of the broken scene!"

After Alice had said the last sentence she walked out of the room and no one have seen her for a month.I think we would all be lying if we said that Calum and Alice's screaming match didn't bother us, because it really did. The rest of the boys saw the tip of the iceberg while I just got to dig a little deeper on the Alice part. Calum is the one that is most effected. Ashton decided that he was feeling guilty because he keeps asking Jamie questions about Alice.

The fucked up thing is that Alice inspired me to write something. I loved the idea of the broken scene and it fitted perfectly into our new song. It's actually an amazing song. At least it's better than She Looks So Perfect. I really do not like that fucking song. I know it's what made us famous but it's just so... Pop.

Jamie explained everything about the broken scene to is, which is five levels of fucked up. Alice created the broken scene because she decided to give our people a voice. The fucked up thing is that she did it as a sixteen year old and everyone know who she is. Either as Alice or as X. No one can dig her real name up. No one even knows anything about her. Jamie knows some things but nothing of importance. Jamie told us that every time Alice have to do something where she hurts someone she gets the date tattooed. To make sure that she won't ever forget. Alice doesn't trust anyone enough to let them in. It's fucking horrible.

For the past month I've been walking past her house. Waiting to see her familiar blonde hair show up in her window. It's weird as fuck I know that but after she told me about the Russian roulette and the poem she read up for me, I just feel like she needs some kind of support. I know that a famous band member might not be the person who should be a support for her but what she doesn't know doesn't hurt her. I look at her window as I always ddo. Wishing to get some answers from her. The light turns on in her room and a brunette sits down by Alice's window. It could be her mother but I don't know. Suddenly she leaves and the front door opens.

"Are you a friend of hers?" I walk towards the woman and I see Alice's eyes. That is also in the only way she looks like her mother.

"Well... Yeah I would say so."

"Can I talk to you for a second? Inside?" I follow the mother inside the way too expensive house. Like yeah I got some money but this is just kind of sickening.

"How do you know her?"

"We met through her friend Jamie."

"Is she okay? Is she managing on her own?"

"She parties a lot and her life is rough but she has a lot of friends to help her and a lot of strangers who support her. Alice have done a lot of good things in her very fucked up state." Her mother smiles slightly.

"I know I haven't been the best mother but I still care." I need to find out about that.

"This is a weird question but can I see her room?"

I look around the white room, trying to find out more about the very mysterious girl. There is a bed, doors into another room, a bedside table and a table. I open the doors into a walk in closet. Okay so we know for a fact that she is a regular girl. There are white shoe boxes under all the clothes except one place, where the shoebox is black. I walk over and grab it carefully. On it is written fuck off. I take off the lid and find a blue, white and pink notebook. On it is written in black 'The thoughts of the girl with a dark past' and 'Fuck off. Property of x Alice' all smudged. I open up and look on the first page where there are a few drawings. On the next pages there are poems she wrote. If these are from real experiences then Alice have had to deal with too much death.