The Queen Of Fuck Ups {m.c.}

Behind The Scenes

After the wedding Alice did what she does best. She fucking left without word to anyone. Not that I actually care about her leaving but Ashton won't shut up about it. But have you seen her? Do you know where she went? Why don't you know? Don't you want to find out where she is? Aren't you dating or something? You should care more. All of this said with a very disappointed look on his face before he would start to nag me about my drinking. Calum is staying in the background these days and while looking ridiculously guilty. I don't even fucking care about why he looks so guilty. Luke is the only one in the band that spends his time usefully. He spends his day fucking Tempest and spends his night partying with me and Alice's crew.

One of the wonderful things about Alice leaving is that I am the person controlling her little kingdom, which simply, is fucking great. I go to the best parties, surrounded by people that call me The Mad Hatter. I don't mind the name because in that way Alice can live on in our memories. Because if she ever gets back, then she will just have to accept that there's a new ruler in town and I didn't come this far just to get kicked off.

"Ash would you please shut up? I'm trying to enjoy a really great fix." Oh wow what a shocker. The disappointed eyes are back on full power.

"No Michael. Alice is our friend and maybe she needs our help. We don't know where she is or who she is with. She could be kidnapped or murdered."

"Okay just shut up for a second Ash. I know Alice and I've known her before she was Alice. I named her. Alice does this. She lives two lives and she doesn't care that you worry about her, so don't worry." I smirk at Jamie as she makes Ashton shut up a bit. Since she's a lot chiller than Alice it's very strange to hear her be all... bitchy and Alice-ish.

"But where does she go?"

"Alice usually changes between this place and another. This is her main place since this is where her parents live. Alice usually stays for about half a year each place before she leaves without leaving any clues behind. This time she stayed for about a year and that's the longest I've seen her stay at one place." Jamie eyes me when saying the last part and I just roll my eyes. That's utter bullshit and they know it. I'm not the reason that she stayed longer. She probably just decided that she would stay here for Halloween.

"You guys are idiots. This bitch just up and leaves without warning or any other shit, and you just accept it. That's so fucking pathetic." They all know I'm telling the truth but they are just too big saints to admit that it's true. Ashton starts to scold me but Jamie, thankfully, stops him before he can get too into it.

"On the night I took you to Alice's house I told you somethings that was very important to know. 1: Alice is special and you just have to accept it. 2: She is traumatized by something from before my time and she still runs from it. She is haunted, but if you wanna hear the story of Alice, then I'm not the right person. Chris knows the stories she will never tell you. He was at her side, witnessing the girl she once was get destroyed. Chris can tell you the full story of this girl."

So of course we all decided to pay a visit to Chris. Neither of us wanted to admit it but we were all too curious to decline listening to the story of the most mysterious woman you would ever meet. Because I will never tell Alice this, but I knew of her before I met her. She is a myth in the party crowd and I dreamed of meeting this myth. You will never find her unless you are permitted to and when you meet her, you just know that it's her, you will never doubt it. When she enters a room you can just feel the power and the carelessness that live inside her. She is what everyone imagines of a goddess. She is wild and powerful. From the moment you talk to her you will just know that if she wanted to she could kill you with a kiss. And she was everything I dreamed to be. Now watch me take her throne.