I Am The Lost

Broken

I sat on the couch in silence with Kid, Patty, and Liz. Finally, Kid spoke.

"Why?" he said.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Why did you have to do it?" He gave me a sad look along with Liz and Patty. I knew what they were all really thinking. Why do you have to be a monster? Why did you have to be the one that brought Asura back to life? How could you betray us? Why didn't you tell us?

"I did it out of love," I told them.

"Love!? Blake, he's the Kishin! Nothing good comes from him!" Liz announced. I'd already heard it all before. I never had friends because of who my dad was. No teacher wanted to help me when I didn't understand. I've always been alone till this year but it's only going to go back to how it was before. I'll return to being lost and alone.

"Blake don't get the wrong idea. We still are your friends," Patty said smiling a sad smile at me. She must of saw through my face expressions what I was thinking. I gave her a smile back, but it faded so fast and was replaced with a single tear running down my face.

"Blake I'm sorry..." Liz whispered.

She sulked along with the others at my shallow response of, "Don't be."

No one of us said anything for a long while, so we just sat and stared at the floor till Lord Death and Dad showed up.

"Asura has agreed to be killed by Blake in public," Lord Death announced to us.

"What!?" I exclaimed standing up. The others just sat and stared at me with sympathetic eyes.

"Blake, it's going to be okay," Dad said in his kind humming voice that he always used when I was a kid.

I used to come home from another day of school looking depressed, as always, and he'd just sit me down and say, "Blake, it's going to be okay. Someday everything will change. Someday you'll change the world, and everyone will see how amazing you really are. Then everyone will want to be your friend." Then I'd always tell him, "But Dad I don't want friends. I have you, and you're all I need to be happy." I'd always give him a confirming smile and he'd smile back. He somehow always knew what to say to me at the right times. It's what made him a true father to me. Specially considering that I had come from a troubling life.

"Dad? If I do this... will you be happy?" I asked.

"I'm not giving you a choice Blake. You must. You promised me, remember?" he said sturn.

I did remember. I did but... I still didn't want to.

"Yes Father," I whimpered. A tear rolled down my cheek and he grabbed my face slow and gentle. He gently wiped the tear away with his white, slim, coressing thumb.

"Please don't cry. You know as well as I do that if you cry than I'll cry than you'll cry even more and we'll both be a mess," he joked. It was a shallow comment though. He was hurting just as much as me and we both already knew that. All there was left was the sadness and regret.

"Yeah," I laughed with him.

"Than it's settled. Blake you'll kill Asura tomorrow," Lord Death told me. An aura of loneliness filled the room as it became more uncomfortable.

"Yes sir." With that Lord Death took Dad away from me. Again. My heart felt like it broken to bits but I hid it behind a smile. I will not cry. I told myself. I will stand strong and still like an unwavering statue.

My silence was broken when I felt a hand on my shoulder.

"Will you be ok?" Kid asked. It was a dumb question. Of course I wasn't.

"Yeah," I answered anyway. If I told the truth he'd just shove me away. So would Liz. So would Patty. So would everyone else. This broken heart will shatter to pieces tomorrow and no one will ever know. Yeah... I'll let no one know.