I Am The Lost

Today

I sat up in my bed as the sound of my alarm clock was beeping. I reached over and turned it off. Slowly I got up and out of bed, got dressed, brushed my hair and teeth, and went down stairs. Kid, Liz, and Patty sat quietly at the kitchen counter.

"Morning guys!" I said trying to sound cheerful while putting on a smile. Today was the day I kill my father in front of the entire city. I technically had nothing to smile about but I couldn't let everyone see how down I really was.

"Morning Blake!" Patty yelled while giving me a big hug. "Blake are you sure your ready for today?" she asked.

"Of course I am. I must be ready because this is my our only chance," I said gently.

"Blake..." Kid trailed. "If you don't do this or... if you run away... do you know what they'll do to you?" Kid stuttered.

"Yes. I do. Don't worry Kid. I'll change everything for the better. I promise," I told him while stroking his soft black hair.

I remember I used to stroke my dads hair. It always calmed him down and made him happy. I smiled at the though of such a good memory.

"Guys! It's time to go!" Patty yelled. I stopped what I was doing and we all left.

When we got to the DWMA I left to go to Lord Death's room. When I entered I found him, Spirt, Stein, and Dad. I held back the erdge to hug my father and just stood at the door. Dad stared at my figure. He probably thought that I looked so strong and confident but I really wasn't. I was unsure and afraid.

"Are you ready?" Dad asked me. I gave him a small smile.

"When you are," I told him. He smiled lightly at me than turned to see what everyone else in the room was doing.

Spirt and Stein were staring at me and Lord Death was using his mirror to see what was going on in the city.

"Blake before you do this, how bout we take a walk?" Stein said standing up and walking my way. Spirt and Dad stayed where they were.

"I guess," I said following him down the hall.

We walked in silence till we entered the battle room. I hadn't fought in this room till just the other day. That's when Dad showed up. Stein looked at me than looked away.

"Blake did you no I have a little one on the way?" he asked. My eyes widened.

"No!"

"Well I do. Marie and I are planning on naming her Serion."

"That's a beautiful name. I bet she'll be absolutely gorgeous when she gets older." He gave me a small smile that quickly faded.

"I want the best for her. I never want to see her hurt or for anyone to tell her that she's not capable of something. Blake I know that you do not want to kill your father and that you'll be on the breaking point if you do but if you ever need someone to talk to your to cry on I'm here for you." I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Stein was being kind to me. I'd always thought he'd hated me but I was weong. So wrong.

"You would let me?" I said pointing to me.

"Yeah. You were young when I first met you and I was probably way to harsh to you. I understand if you've thought I've hated you. I'm not a person to show how I feel and when I saw how different you were when I first met you I literally didn't want anything to do with you. So when you showed up in my vlass I was shocked. I didn't want you to be in my class or to no that I was a teacher. Now I wish I could've been there for you more. You have true potential to do great things and my hatred for people different from what I'm used to blinded me. When my daughters born I hope she's just like you." I gave him a huge smile.

"I can't wait!" I laughed.

We went back to Lord Death's so called "office" to see if it was time. When we entered everyone was looking at us.

"Are you ready Blake?" Death asked.

"As ready as I'll every be."

We went out to where the whole town could witness my doing. Lord Death made an announcement that I was going to kill the Kishin. That word Kishin. I hate that word.

"Blake," Dad said wrapping his arms around me. "Grow up, stay strong, and never forget who you are."

"I promise," I said tearing up.

"Now kill me!" he shouted.

I got Kimi in my skinny hand and stared Dad in the red eyes while he stared into my now blue ones. Tears began to form.

"ASURA! DIE!" I screamed as I plunged Kimi into his heart. I pulled her out and let Dad drop to the ground. I turned back to normal and rushed to his side. I cradled his head and stroked his hair. He looked into my green orbs and softly smiled before slowly disintegrating into the warm air. Everyone cheered bu I just sat there. I sat there holding back the tears that were brimming my eyes.

I looked up to see all my friends standing in the crowd staring sadly at me. Why are they sad? They should be happy, I thought. The crowd began to clear but they just kept standing there staring at me. Once the crows disappeared I put on a happy face and went over to them.

"So should we get going?" I asked with a fake smile.

"Blake wipe that smile off your face!" Maka yelled at me.

"Why Maka?" I asked confused. I thought I should act happy.

"Because you just killed your own father! How can you smile after killing someone important to you!" At that I lost it.

"I will smile because if I don't than you all will hate me! If I cry you will only shun me! If I told you that my heart is broken and will never be fixed than you'd laugh! It's all because YOU WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND!" I yelled. I grabbed my ears and fell to my knees. I cried while they just stood there in shock from my out burst. Today was a horrible day.