Ciara POV
its been two weeks now and i havent seen or spoken to Ray Ray about the kiss. Also im not talking to Nicki. I know i shouldnt have tookin my anger out on her. It wasnt her fault. I dont know who did that but i know it wasnt her she was just trying to help. Im goin over her house today to talk to her but im still confused about Ray. Yes i like him and all but am i ready for a new relationship. Dez was a person i fell in loved with. He was my first kiss, the first ive ever been sexual with, and the first to brake my heart. can i really let someone else in who can hurt me more. I dont want to shed another tear over a guy but what if Rays different. I need to think about this.
I knock on Nicki's door and Prod answers. Hey Ciara, he said giving me a hug. I returned it and walks in. Wheres Nicki, i really need to speak to her. It took him a minute to replay, i think he was thinking where she was at then he got it. Shes casting her video of high school right now but she'll be back at 4:30. With that he walks in the living room and i followed.
In the living room there was Ricky, Roc, Ray, Niya, Twist, Chuckee, Prince, and Prod. Hey yall, i greeted. As quick as the words left my mouth Niya was comming towards me ready to hug me and im pretty sure question me too.
without a word she dragged me upstairs to her room and lock the door. she ran to the bed and the questions begain and babbling began.
Niya: Ciara why didnt you tell me you fell like that? I never ment to hurt you. I wish you would tell me that you felt like that i never want you to feel like that Ciara your one of my best friends and i would never want to take your sister like that.
Me: Niya, calm down. Its ok. It was my fault i know i was just being bratty. I know that once you moved here Nicki was goin ro be busy more but then we drufted apart. I pushed myself away. I know Nicki was tring but i was still jealous that yall was more close. i shouldnt have said the things i said to her. Thats why i came here, to speak to her but shes not here.
Niya: ohh, you know you really hurt her feelings though.
Me: I know, i know please stop making me feel worst. I never ment to I was mad at th moment and i took it out on her knowing i had secret feeling inside and didnt care if i let them go or not it was a bigg mess.
Niya: well aslong as you talk to her im sure she'll forgive you, it is Nicki. She never stay mad. :)
Me: your right... Oh theres something. gotta tell you that happened later on that night.
Niya: like?
Me: Ray kissed me.
Niya eyes went Three times its size showing the shokeness in her face.
Niya: OMG OMG OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS. HOW WAD IT? DID YOU LIKE IT? YALL TWO WOULD MAKE SUCH A CUTE COUPLR?
Me: Hold up a minute, im not even sure if im gunna go out with him. ok yeah i lik him but i dont wanna be hurt again. pluse im wanna know who shot up my car. I need to focus on that.
Niya: you can do that and still have a boyfriend and you gotta stop comparin your relationships on your last. i know you got hurt but you push away good people blicking your heart. I know Ray really likes you from the way he stares at you. dont make dumv mistakes and loose a guy perfect for you and you already knew how Dez was when you met him but stayed with you it was your choice. Please dont mess up your chance of happiness.
I was about to speak when someone knocked on the door. Niya got out her seat and opened her door revealing Ray he looked so nervious. He asked if he could speak to me alone. Of course Niya was already out the door before i protested.
Ray: Ciara im...
Me: no you dont have to say it, i really enjoyed it. i just freaked out
Ray: so you like me too
