Adrenalin

Chapter 23 - Sydney

I never thought I'd tell someone about that stuff before. I honestly could never see myself trusting a person enough. But along comes Hayden, shining like the sun and suddenly life isn't so bad anymore. Maybe there is something inside me worth loving.

We walk back from the Chinese place on the corner and find a table to sit at near the playground. The dying remnants of the sun could still be seen on the horizon but its warmth was leaving. I draw my coat around me tighter. Hayden passes me my tub of fried rice and honey chicken.

I look at him sitting across from me and watch as he pushes his golden hair from his eyes. "I love you." I tell him.

He grins. "That's the third time you've told me in the past hour."

I shrug. "I've never had someone to say it to before."

We continue eating and my mind wanders off, stressing about things. What if he wants to have sex? I may not be a virgin but I still have no idea what I'm doing. And did he bring another condom because we kind of wasted the other one before? My first time obviously wasn't enjoyable and I trust Hayden but what if I fuck up somehow... I don't know how I would but knowing me, I'll find a way to ruin everything. Like what if he's slept with like heaps of experienced girls before? Ew, that's a bad thought.

"Hey trouble," Hayden says, snapping me out of my thoughts. "What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing." I lie. "Just pondering life."

He cocks an eyebrow. "Right."

He doesn't believe me. I roll my eyes.

"Are you okay... y'know, after before?" He asks me.

I look at him and then look down. I nod. "Yeah, I'm fine."

"Sydney, you're not... you're not any of those things you said. I don't care; it doesn't make you any less. You're still perfect to me."

I nod, looking down and playing with my food.

He sighs and changes the subject. "I have football tomorrow afternoon if you want to bring the boys along."

"Yeah, I will." I smile. "Riley will love it."

Hayden stands up, gathering all the rubbish and chucking it in the bin a few meters away. I stand too, pulling up my black skinny jeans that had slipped down my butt.

"Ready, baby?" Hayden asks when he returns. I nod and he slips an arm around my waist. We walk back to the harbour and Hayden helps me onto the boat again. I'm making it my new goal to get on without his help, but even thinking about the water makes me nauseous and dizzy.

I climb down into the cabin first and walk over to my duffel bag in the corner whilst Hayden climbs down the ladder. He falls back onto the bed, making himself comfortable. I grab out my pajamas, a small pair of shorts and a singlet. Okay, I may have purposely chosen the lacy black ones and I'm highly also aware that he's watching me as I take off my clothes.

I pull my jeans down slowly which is impossible to look sexy whilst doing, before sliding on my tiny black shorts. I peek over my shoulder at Hayden. He's resting against the headboard of the bed with his hand tucked behind his head, watching me with glazed eyes.

I continue, shrugging off my coat and pulling my shirt over my head. At this point I'm facing him but I turn around when I unclip my bra, letting it fall to the floor next to me. I bend, picking up the singlet and slipping it on.

"Fuck." Hayden says behind me.

I turn around. "What?"

His eyes switch to my chest briefly before shooting back up to my eyes. "I want to kiss every inch of your skin."

I try not to giggle. The bulge in his pants is becoming increasingly obvious. I walk over, joining him in the bed and crawling on top of him. His hands slip under my singlet, gripping my hips.

"You really shouldn't have bothered putting clothes on, baby." He smirks.

"Why's that?" I ask smugly. My usual fake confidence almost feels real.

"I'll be taking them off soon." He replies in a husky voice.

Shit, I'm so gone.

His forefinger runs up my arm until it hits the strap of my singlet. His finger slips under, tugging it down before doing the same to the other. His tongue swirls over my shoulder and he kisses my neck and along my collarbones. I let out a long breath I realise I was holding and my body shivers. I slip my arms out of the straps and Hayden looks up at me before pulling the singlet down over my nipples.

He groans and his head hits the headboard. "You don't even know how sexy you are, do you?"

I bite my lip, trying not to grin. His right hand slides onto my boob whilst he leans down and traces around my left nipple with his tongue. Jesus Christ. I whimper slightly and grind down on his crotch. His tongue switches to my right nipple.

My hands tangle themselves in his hair and I yank his head back, grinning before crushing my lips to his. We only break off the kiss briefly a few times to remove pieces of clothing until we were both naked. He flips me over so his weight is on me. I love the feeling.

It turns out he brought a few condoms... "just in case".

"I love you, baby." Hayden whispers against the skin of my neck as he slips inside me. A gasp escapes my lips and I arch my back in pleasure and pain; it's all the same to me.