Bulletproof love

Hospital

Vic's pov

I hear the sirens of an ambulance and I see a guy in a police uniform and I see Jaime siting down next to me. What is going on? I felt myself black out again. the next thing I know is I see a doctor stitching up my leg and my arm was bandaged up, and I black out.

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Beep
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I hear the heart monitor beep. I also hear someone crying softly. I open my eyes a little and I see that I'm in a hospital room. I look over and I see Jaime holding onto my hand. Then i remebered everything that had happened. I rub my thumb on his hand softly and I see his head pop up. I let go of his hand and I wipe away a tear on his face. I try me best to smile.

"Oh my god vic, you scared the hell out of me." he let out shakily and he placed a long kiss on my forehead.

"I'm sorry." I said with a raspy voice and droopy eyes.

"Please, don't be sorry, non of this is your fault." he said sadly as another tear went down his face.

"Please don't cry baby." I say wiping another tear off of his face.

"Vic? did you do this because of what I said about having a baby? because if it is then we don't..." I cut him off.

"No no no no, I didn't do this because of starting a family, I want to start a family very much, I just got triggered, I saw the shaver, and it just went from their, I would never cut myself because you asked if we could start a family, I would love to start a family." I say kinda uneasy.

Jaime kissed me and leaned his forehead on mine.

"How bad is it?" I ask slowly.

"Pretty bad, the doctor said you have to stay on the hospital about three days after you woke up."

"How long was I out?" I ask not really sure if I wanted to know the answer.

He hesitated.

"Four days."

I looked at him."im so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen, I only meant to do this to myself."

"Please." he paused. "don't be sorry."

We stayed silent for a moment. I can't believe I did this, I'm such a dumb fuck.

"The doctor also said that you have to go to a mental hospital, until he thinks your ready to come out, they think this was an attempt. mike and tony are here though, you wanna see them?" he asked wiping yet another tear away.

I simply nodded and he gave me another kiss before getting up and leaving the room. I sit myself up slowly and I look down at my legs. I open the bandage a little and I see all of the cuts. god I wish I never did this, and now I have to pay for it by going to a mental hospital. I place the bandage back and I see mike and tony walk in with Jaime.

"Hey guys." I say with my voice still raspy.

Mike came up to the bed, giving me a big hug, being mindful of my cuts.

"Hey little brother." I say wiping away yet another tear today.

"Hey, I'm glad your ok." he said giving me a short kiss on the forehead.

"Hey buddy." I say looking over at tony.

"Hey, I'm here for you bro, please talk to someone before you do this next time." he said wiping away his own tear.

"I'm really sorry guys, I wasn't thinking." I say picking at my nails. "but I'm ok guys, see? I'm alive." I try smiling again.

I look over at Jaime and he just beaks down crying, which made me cry a little to.

"Come here." I say holding out my arms.

He sits on the bed and he cries into my shoulder. I rub his back soothingly.

"Hey baby, I'm okay, see I'm just fine please stop crying, I don't want you to cry." I say leaning my head on his.

He sits up. "I'm just so grateful that I have you, you deserve to feel better than the blade you really do, I don't like to see you sad and knowing that I can't to jack shit about it. honestly I don't know what my life would be like without you, I would be a mess and seeing you like this, just have me a little taste of what it might have been like, and I don't want that, I want you to live happy, I just don't know what to do to help you, and this can't happen again, I don't know what I might do if this does happen again. And I don't know what I will do with myself when you go to that mental hospital, you don't deserve to go their, you don't deserve any of this." By now, mike and tony left to give us some privacy.

"Alls that you have to do is be their every step of the way and that would be enough for me." I say honestly.

I scoot over and I pat the empty space next to me. Jaime gets in and I snuggle right into him.

"I'm sorry for the pain that I have caused you, and please, don't say that I can't say sorry, because I need to. its my fault you feel this way." I said softy. "and you can visit me in that hospital right?"

He responds with a simple nod.

It was quiet for a couple of minutes.

"I love you so much." he said to me.

"I love you to, forever and always." I said softly.

"Forever and always." he repeats before I felt myself drift.

Authors note
I'm sorry.... ;-; sad I know..... I know I don't update every day but I couldn't wait to update, this gave me fluff just reading it XD anyways love you turtles.