Bulletproof love

Starting a family

(I know I lied I said this book wouldn't have a trigger warning, but this chapter might be triggering to some, includes self harm)

Vic's pov

A year later ( sorry about the time skip ;-;)

We had just started the next warped tour and currently we are on the bus to our next location. Jaime and I shared a bunk and so did mike and tony. mike and tony where doing their own thing while Jaime and I were snuggling in the bunk. I had my head rested on his chest and my arm was draped over him.

"Hey baby?" I heard Jaime speak.

"Yea?" I replied playing with his hair.

"Have you thought about is having, you know, kids?" The question took me by surprise.

"Yea, a couple of times actually." i say moving myself a little closer to him.

"I think I want to start a family vic." he said softly.

I think that it would be nice, starting a family, but what about tours? we can't bring a baby with us.

"Maybe." I say.

We laid down for a little while before I heard a soft snore coming from Jaime. I get up carefully and I walk into the bathroom. I turn on the shower and I get undressed and I get in. I scrub my hair and body clean and I made my way out of the shower. I put on my boxers and I notice that their is a package of disposable razors. it triggered a lot of memories and instantly I felt all of the voices in my head saying I deserve all the pain that I get. I shakily grabbed one of the razors and I quickly get the blade out of the shaver. I turn around and I lock the door. I sit myself against the wall and I put the blade to my wrist. I quickly dig the blade into my skin leaving a little gash behind. i forgot how much this hurt, I mean I haven't done it in a long time. I move to another portion of my wrist and I drag the blade across leaving a little bit of a deeper gash. I do this a couple of more times to my wrist and both of my legs. their is a lot of blood, I don't think I have ever cut this badly before, but I could care less at the moment. I lean back all the way and I let myself bleed. I feel the blood trickle down my arm and legs. I start to feel dizzy and I have a hard time keeping my eye open. I hear a knock on the door followed by a vic, it was Jaime. unfortunately I sat next to the door and some of the blood went under the door. I think that Jaime saw the blood because he began banging on the door telling me to let him in. I wanted to open the door but yet again I could barely move. I heard the door snap and fling open. I looked over at Jaime with droopy. he kneeled next to me, as I started to drift.

Authors note
Sooo sorry for the short chapter! I was busy trying to get rid of head lice, and right after I got my period again, yay me .-. Anyways I love you turtles!