My Heart Is Open

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

**AN- the picture is how Adam leans against Rachel... In a nonsexual way of course :) **

*Adam's pov
One week later*

"Hey Adam, how is she?" Rachel asked coming into the room I hadn't left in a week. "She still hasn't woken up, why won't she wake up?" I asked my voice void of emotion. "She's healing, she'll wake up when she's ready" Rachel said leaning over her arms around my shoulders. I leaned back against her, I needed her strength. "Adam go shower, you need it" she said. "Rach I can't leave her" I said. "Here is a fresh change of clothes, the nurse said you could use the in room shower, just don't tell anyone" she said. I looked up at her, "I'll stay with her" she assured me. I nodded and kissed Lacey's head, "I'll be right back" I whispered. I stripped down and look at my tired face, she'd hate how I looked right now. I sighed and showered quickly and dressed. I put my old clothes in a bag and dropped them in the corner. "Better?" Rachel asked. "Yea thanks" I said. "How about breakfast?" She asked. "I guess" I shrugged. "Anything special?" "Rachel..." I said looking up at her. "I know" she said and I wrapped my arms around her waist needing a hug more than anything. She hugged me close in the mothering way she would if Ryan or Michael ran up to her crying. We stayed like that a few minutes before pulling away. I watched her leave to get breakfast before watching Lacey.

I held her hand biting my lip, "I was thinking about names, maybe Ryder for a boy, like that movie you like, the girl in the tower one. What's it's called? Tangled or something. And maybe Willow, or Briar Rose those are nice. Very Disney" I said with a slight chuckle. "I had to search online for those" I said smiling. "Come on babe, wake up name our child, make fun of me for making fun of your Disney obsession, anything baby please" I begged. She didn't wake up, she didn't laugh or smile, or anything. Rachel came back and ate breakfast with me, and tried to keep my mind off everything. It was hard, I couldn't stop thinking about the worst case scenario. And I was still trying to figure out if I should tell her parents or not. I sighed and watched her. "Have you seen the baby?" I asked openly. "I have, I hope you don't mind, you were so caught up here I wanted to check in and make sure everything was alright. I know the doctors talked to you but I had to see for myself" she explained. "And how is the baby?" I asked, I wanted to know, to hold him or her, to give him or her a name. "Fine, doctors are thinking maybe another fews days and baby can go home" she said. It was to snap me back into being a parent, "am I a bad parent? I haven't even seen my own child" I murmured. "No you're trying to cope, it's okay" she said.

I looked away from Lacey then, "I should see the baby though right?" I asked. She bit her lip but nodded. I bit my lip and squeezed Lacey's hand. "I'll be right back sweetheart, I promise" I said kissing her. Rachel took my spot and started talked animatedly about something she saw on TV with the kids. I envied the way she could pretend nothing was wrong. I walked down the hallway toward the nursery. I felt like a ghost roaming the halls. By now the doctors and nurses knew me and looked at me with concern. I brushed it away and entered the nursery, "baby Levine" I said to the nurse in charge. She looked at her chart and scanned my bracelet and went to one of the bassinets and pulled out a little pink bundle. A daughter, I have a daughter. "Here mr. Levine, your little baby girl" she said smiling, "it's nice to finally see you here" she added and went back to her desk. I sat in one of the rocking chairs and stared down at the little person staring back at me, "hi little one, I'm your daddy, I'm sorry it took so long to get here."

I watched as she smiled and yawned and look at me then in the distance. "Mom has been sick, I couldn't leave her, I wanted us to meet you at the same time, I wanted us to all be together" a sob caught in my throat then and I had to stop. Her eyes changed, they seemed sad, like she understood everything I said. I sang softly every lullaby I could think of and started on my own stuff. "Would you like to feed her?" The nurse asked a while later. "Oh um, s...sure" I said. She handed me a bottle and a burp rag and watched a moment as I struggled to get a comfortable position to feed her so she wasn't laying down too much. "Don't worry it will all come naturally soon enough, does she have a name I could put on her bassinet?" The nurse wondered. "I uh, I'm not sure" I stuttered. "Thats alright think about it, you've had a rough time. She just needs a name before we can release her" she said. I nodded and fed her and having a baby conversation with her.

Before long the nurse came and took her away for a nap. I kissed her head, "I'll be back little one" I whispered. I made my way back to Lacey. No one came looking for me so nothing must've changed. I sighed seeing Rachel just watching her, even she couldn't pretend for long. I put my hand on her shoulder, "go home Rach, you've been here long enough" I said. She shook her head, just a few more minutes" she insisted. I sat beside her listening to our breathing and the steady beep of the monitors. It was rhythmic and sleep inducing. I yawned and rested my head on the bed. Rachel watched me before kissing my cheek, "promise me you'll eat" she said. I nodded, "I promise, now go be with your family" I said. She nodded and left.

I sat holding her hand, "come on Lace, you need to see our daughter, she's perfect, she looks just like you, she's a perfect replica of you, you gotta see her babe" I said. Hands fell on my shoulders then, "hey." "Hey mom" I sighed rubbing my eyes. "How's our girl?" She asked. "Same" I said leaning back in the chair. "I saw the baby" I mentioned. "Isn't she gorgeous?" Mom asked. "You saw her too?" "Rachel took us" she explained. I nodded watching her, "should I call her parents? I mean after everything they put her through do they still deserve to know?" I asked. I've held that in for a week now, it's haunted me. "What do you think she'd want?" Mom asked pulling up a chair beside me, she continued, "did she tell them she was pregnant?" "No she didn't want them to know" I said, that was the only thing I knew. "Then don't tell them, she wouldn't want it" mom said decisively. "What am I gonna do?" I asked tears fresh in my eyes. "We'll get through this, but you have a daughter now that needs a name and a father" she said. I bit my lip, "I don't think I can without her" I said. "Just one day at a time" mom said kissing my head. I nodded and leaned against her.

We talked for a while before she ordered I eat dinner and go see my daughter again. We ate together and I headed to the nursery once again. I told her about her mother and I fed her once more, even changed a diaper. I held her a while longer before giving her back. "When can she go home?" I asked. The nurse checked her file, "well everything looks good, she can go home tomorrow" she said. "Thank you" I said kissing my daughter once more. I headed back to Lacey and sent mom home. "I'll come back tomorrow sweetie" she said kissing me then Lacey. I sat back turned off the light and turned on the tv putting it low before putting the headphones back in her ears and relaxing beside her in the recliner. I closed my eyes, tired from the same old routine. I drifted to sleep exhausted and emotionally drained.

*Lacey's pov

Music, where is that coming from I thought. I tried opening my eyes to look around but my body wouldn't respond. "Liar! Uh 1, 2, uh 1,2,3... This thing, called love, I just can't handle it. This thing, called love, I must get around to it, I ain't ready, crazy little thing called love." Adam, Adam I'm here! I screamed I'm here please help me! His voice washed over me through the song. Baby please! Wait baby.. Did I have the baby? What is it? Oh god did I died? No if I was dead I wouldn't hear music. Why can't I move? Adam I'm here get help, please! What is happening, please I can't stay like this! My body ached to be heard. I gathered all the strength I had and screamed. "Adam!" Beeping erupted around me, "Lacey! Lacey!" "Adam!" I yelled. My eyes still wouldn't open and the beeping wouldn't stop. "It's okay Lacey, if you can hear me you're alright, you're in the hospital" an unfamiliar voice said turning on a light that was too bright even behind my closed lids and deeper sounding beeps were created around me, before the higher pitched ones ended. "Will she be okay?" Adam asked. "She's tough, I believe she will" the voice said before soft footfalls carried her away. "Lacey baby please I need you to come back to me" Adams voice begged me, it hurt that he sounded this way and I couldn't stop it. I mustered up my strength again and screamed, "Adam!" "Lacey!"