My Heart Is Open

You and Me

*Lacey's pov

"Adam!" I screamed, my body shaking and my eyes flew open. "Lacey!" His hand grabbed mine, "Lacey?" He said again tears streaming down his face, "oh baby" he said openly sobbing. "Adam" I said wanting to pull him close but I had no strength, "what.. What happened? Where am I?" I asked. "You're in the hospital babe, let me get a nurse first," "no please not yet" I begged, the exhaustion was evident in my voice. "What happened?" I asked again. "Well, you were in labor, Rachel was driving you here when you called me" he started, "I remember that, I remember being told to push too but you weren't here, Rachel said you were on your way, in a car or something" I said remembering. "Right, I made it babe, just like I promised, I got to your room and..." He stalled, trailing off. "What?" I asked. "You were struggling pretty bad, your blood pressure was dropping and so was the baby's, you were both in distress. I got there and the doctor yelled to have you moved for an emergency c-section" he explained. I put my hand shakily to my stomach and winced, it hurt. "The baby is fine, the doctor did the procedure in 30 seconds, but, you're blood pressure kept dropping, you lost a lot of blood" he said dragging it out. "What is it!" I said distraught. "Babe, you were gone for 15 minutes. They couldn't get you back. The doctor called it and came out to tell me, I ran in and kissed you and begged you to come back to me and you did" he said.

I looked at him shaking violently, "I was dead for 15 minutes?" I asked feeling sick and numb. He nodded, "that was last week" he finished. "I've been out for a week?" I asked. He nodded still holding my hand. "What about the baby?" I asked. "Perfect" he said. "What is it?" I wondered. "A daughter" he said. Tears rolled down my cheeks, "a daughter," I repeated. Adam and I cried together for a few minutes before he went to get a nurse. I tried to gather my thoughts when the nurse came in asking about my name, the date, my birthday, where I was, why I was there, and so on. She asked about the president, asked me to count to twenty, say my abc's and say them again backwards. "Everything seems just fine Mrs. Levine, it's good to have you back" she said writing in my chart. She left and I stared at Adam.

He was watching me intently. "Addy?" I said softly. He dropped down on the bed his head in his hands crying. I sat up slowly, very aware of the pain in my stomach though it was flatter than before, and rested my hand on his shoulder, "Addy, come here" I said trying to get him closer. I tugged at his arm with all my strength until he moved closer to me. I wrapped my arms around him playing with his hair, "I'm here" I whispered soothingly. "It alright now, I'm here" I said resting my forehead on his. "I love you Lacey Joy." "I love you Adam Noah" I said back and kissed him lightly. We sat like that lost in each other's eyes forever. "I want to see her" I said finally, breaking the silence. "Not now you need to rest" he said. "Adam I've been out for a week, that's plenty of rest" I said, "I want to see her." He sighed, "let me see what I can do" he said and left the room leaving me with my thoughts. I've been out for a week, what did he name her? He couldn't have left our daughter nameless for a week. Thoughts swirled through my head as I tried to remember, remember anything.

He came in then, "they said they'd see about getting a wheelchair and they'd let me know" he said an sat down beside me once more. "What's her name?" I asked. "I couldn't name her without you" he said and I could hear his heart breaking. I nodded, and his phone rang. "It's Rachel," he said. "Hey Rach" he put it on speaker. "How're you holding up?" She asked. "I'm great, she woke up Rach, she's up and talking and perfect" he said beaming at me. "What?!" She yelled, "Matty come here she's up!" She yelled. "Hi Rach" I said then. "It is so good to hear your voice" she said. "Lace?" Matt yelled into the phoned, "hey Matt" I said and smiled. This family has done so much for me. "How are you!" They asked now also on speakerphone, "I'm okay, a little weak but okay" I said. "Have you seen the baby yet?" Rachel asked. "No we're working on it" I said. "Is there a name?" She asked. I looked at Adam, "we'll let you know" I said. "You better" she laughed, "get some rest Hun, we'll be by tomorrow." "I will, and Rachel, thank you" I said knowing I couldn't have done it without her. "welcome Hun, night." "Night" I smiled.