Ashes Reverie

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He broke the lock of the door and came in. The mirror of the makeup table, bookshelves, and million-dollar decorations she's been gifted in many royal parties are all broken into pieces; blood is all over the walls and the floor. He never saw this phase of hers; this is the new phase of her anger he's seeing now.She's still sane. What the hell are you doing in my room??? Leave me alone; I'll be fine in an hour. Just leave me.He opens the drawer on the left side of her bed, picks a bandage box up in his hand, and sits on the floor right in front of her. He knows she didn't let her touch him, so he moved the box in her way with the force of his four fingers.Thanks, I'll be on my own; go ahead. What happens?  Someone who hurt you?

. It seems. Like you lost something very dear to you, he's good at predicting situations, but she's the kind of person who deceives every prediction, but not every time.

'Yeah,' she says with her trembling voice. He's much more dear to me than my own self. I lost him, & I can't even be with him in his last times. I regret the way I chose.Isn't it what you wanted??? He asked politely Yes, I want it, but I want to live with him as well. He's calling me for the last time, but I didn't go. How can I live with this regret my whole life? There's a letter in her left hand covered in the blood flowing from her finger's wound; she didn't open it as if she knew exactly what was written in it. He noticed her hand. Why haven't you opened it yet? He questionedTell me one thing. She saw in his eyes that a counterquestion just appeared on her lips.Why the fuck do the people who leave us want us not to even sob after that? She wanted to scream, but she spoke like she was murmuring.He gets the answer to his question, and then he saysThey wanted us to live with the love they give us; they love us. That's why they don't want us to be even sad, not even a single tear, not even close, not even at all...He says politely while looking at her fingers that are still covered in heavy injuries.Isn't it wrong? That we are the ones who forget how to go on living, and the others want us to live?? She questioned againIt is wrong, but don't you think they are thinking about us even in their last moments? They are worried about us even when they are the ones who are dying? Yeah, it is definitely wrong, but they simply want us to be happy even after knowing we can never be happy again. Time passes, life goes on, but still, the one who truly loves never forgets a single time spent with them. He explains well with psychoeducation. She does her own bandages and gets some hidden pills in when he goes out of the room, and forces herself to sleep.That's what she does most of the time, whenever she wants to isolate herself