(HIATUS) Return from the ashes I made.

Without you.

A/N JUST TO HELP YOU GUYS, NEW CHARACTERS APPEARING, LIKE ROSES'S FRIENDS - FRED (CASPAR LEE) AND JOHN (BAEKHYUN FROM EXO) I'LL ADD THEM TO THE CAST AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. :D

I pushed the increasing feeling of anxienty to the back of my mind. People kept stressing me with hugs and cheers and grettings. I''ve just arrived to my aunt's house, which is where Im staying while Im here.

"Darling you look so skinny! Have you been eating properly?"

They pinched my cheeks.

"How's the school going? Do you study everyday?"

They shook my arms.

"Oh little Rosie's back!! You probably can't remember me! You were just a baby last time I saw you! Ooh you've gotten so big youre almost a lady now!"

They ruffled my hair.

And all I could do was smile and nod.

I was cringing internally and the only thing I wanted to do was stand up and tell everybody to go fuck themselves because I'm not in the mood to interact with humans right now.

I just want to go back to Gerard's basement.

My brain zoned out and went back to when we said goodbye. I couldn' t help but remember the kiss, for tenth time that day.

"Rose... Rosie... Uuh... Anyone there??"

Someone just snapped their fingers in front of my eyes, making me blink and shake my head.

"Huh.. Yeah?" I said distracted and looked up, it was my friend Molly.

"Your aunt said us we can take some snacks upstairs... C'mon you haven't told us anything yet!"

***

We found a big room in the second floor and the five of us sat on the king size bed, dropping too much snacks in the middle of a cirle.

I took in the appearance of my friends once we had sat down, smiling and chatting happily while we ate the first packet of crisps.

They've slightly changed since the last time I saw them; Fred looked thinner, his blonde hair styled a bit shorter and with a quiff at the front, making his blue eyes stand out even more. John had actually made a radical change and had dyed his hair sort of orange-ish and was fluffy and wavy, and I thin he was also wearing some contacts, but it totally suited his adorable nerdy aesthetic.

On the other hand the girls hadnt changed that much.

Molly had his black hair in a bun and a bright blue dress, we're both color geeks, and in terms of fashion were very alike, she's taller than and has a curvy body I'm too jealous of. While Liz would sometimes be a little pain in the ass with her obsession with expensive brands and her large amounts of blush and mascara and her pitchy voice, but I grew too fond of her and I love her to death, even with that description she's nowhere near Shania whatsoever.

"So... Rosie darling.." Molly started.

"Dont you have anything interesting to tell us??"

It seemed like they already knew what i was going to tell... But what the heck I was supposed to tell anyways?

"C'mon... We missed you so much tell us how's like living in the states..."

"Yes Ro you've barely spoken to us you must've been very busy..."

I smiled and sighed, overwhelmed by their comments... A big part of me was extremely happy to see them again and hear all those lovely comments.

While another part of me as big as the other couldn't stop thinking about Gerard.

"Ro baby... You zoned out." John shook my shoulder lightly, making me come back, realizing I had a popcorn between my lips I hadnt chew yet.

"Is there anything worrying you?"

"Mm? Oh! No... No its fine.. I'm just... Tired from the flight." I mumbled absently pushing the goddamned popcorn into my mouth.

This will be even harder than what I thought.

***

"Ey... Ey... You there?? Come down!"

Gerard some shouting on his face making him shake his head and violently stopping his train of thoughts.

"You're not helping at all." Mikey sighed while hanging a red ball from a branch of the big christmas tree standing in the corner of the Way's living room.

"Mm?" He hummed, still lost in his thoughts picking up a tinsel distracted.

He was too busy to concentrate in such a boring thing like decorating a fucking dusty christmas tree that smelled like fucking shit and made him sneeze.

"What keeps your mind so busy?"

"N-nothing... It doesnt matter."

"C'mon tell me... That look in your eyes only appears when you've ran out of inspiration."

Mikey knew Gerard well enough to realise his brother's mind was working hard in something... But he couldn't figure out what it was just yet.

"It's... Complicated..." Gerard mumbled sitting cross-legged on the floor and resting his head on his hands.

He sighed and squintes his eyes, running a hand through his hair afterwards.

He couldnt stop thinking about what happened the other day. How he grew the balls to do that without ending up looking awkward.

How he had grown the balls to do everything they had done from the day they met.

Wowowow, Gerard stop there... Are you getting weak on the knees from thinking about that kiss?

Maybe he needs to repeat that memory in his mind over and over to feel better.

Because right know he starte dto feel like utter shit, because he started to realise he 'd have to cope with two weeks of agony... He'd have all the free time the holidays gave him but he wouldnt have the person he wanted to spend it with.

Is difficult to stop thinking about this girl.