Journal // haylor

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its been two months since we got back together. two months. can you believe it? what if i didn't let him in that time? i could never feel this happy again.

we baked today instead of going out to celebrate. and of course, sexniversary to start the day. but when we baked there was someone at the door and i didn't know who it was.

harry said it was a lost man but his eyes didn't tell the same. his eyes told me that it wasnt a man. his eyes told me that he was lying. but i chose not to argue and believed him.

and this is why im writing again.

i want to know the truth.

what if he lied again?

what if he hid something away from me?

what if all of these was just a lie?

sometimes i need someone to tell me which was real and which was not. because most of the time, i would find myself daydreaming things that could or couldnt happen to me. the bad and the good.

i don't want to make the same mistake twice.

i don't want to make a fool of myself.

i just want to be loved.

is it that hard?

i want to be loved without a feeling that the person who loved me doesnt love me again.

i want to be loved where i could feel the love.

i want to be loved because i love someone as much as i want that person to love me back.

the question is:

does someone love me?

if harry does, does he really mean it?

and what if he doesnt?

🌏🌞🚀🌏🌞🚀🌏🌞🚀🌏🌞🚀

GUYS ITS AN UPDATE!!
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yet?
thank you.

oh and have u seen the wildest dreams mv?? holy cheeseballs.
it was so amazing.

taylor was slaying hot as usual and scott oh em gee. that freaking body please.

okay i should stop but yeah hope you like this one and i promise i know how this will end.

its 1:06am and i probably have to sleep.

gotta go,
bye loves!

aethel x