After thoughts and choices

Do you... Remember me?

Killua's P.O.V
I try to revive Gon with my electricity, I feel him jolt everytime but nothing until the fourth time. He wakes up heavily breathing, his eyes widen and he intensely stares directly in front of him. I'm so overfilled with joy, I hug him very tightly and cry tears of joy until he says "w-who are you..?" I let go, my eyes filled with worry. "Y-you don't remember me?" I ask my tears of joy slowly turning into tears of woe. "No.. I'm afraid not..-! Wait!" I hear him say, his heartbeat racing. I try to tell him calm down but he tries to get away from me. I don't know why so I ask him what's wrong. "Y-you... Y-your that p-person w-who.." He says with horror in his eyes as he looks at me. Activating his nen with an angry look. He's upping his defence, "Gon.. It's me.. Killu-" he cuts me off with "I don't care who you are!! Just stay away from me!" He runs out of the room, Kurapika and Leorio run to him but he pushes them out of the way and heads back to his house. We run after him, Kurapika and Leorio try to run into the house but are stopped by Gon and his look of terrifying anger. We can see him through his room window, I jump to his window-sill and crawl through his window but he notices before I have a chance to tell him who I am. He grabs a dagger from his bedside drawer and holds it defensively. "Gon! You have memory loss! Don't worry! I'm not here to hurt you!" I try to explain his current situation but he keeps shouting at me "shut up you monster! I don't know who you are, nor do I care! Just stay away from me!" He looks like he's going to attack me. I can't feel anything but my heart just shattering and him stomping on what were the remains of my once full heart.. I begin to cry, tears streaming down my face I grab the dagger from him and I snap it in half. I pin him to the wall from his throat, he's grasping for air, scratching at my hands. Until I realize that I'm making the same mistake.. "I drilled it into you. The first thing you do when you meet someone is wether they should die or not.." The words I remember from the hunter exam.. My brother.. Illumi... I let go of Gon, him heavily breathing on the floor on his knees. I look at my hand, still stained with his blood.. Not knowing how to fix things.. I just jump out of his window.. Kurapika and Leorio asked what happened but I just silently walk away not saying a word. Until I get to the docks. Leorio follows me but Kurapika stayed at Gon's house, probably trying to jog his memory. I get a boat to head home.. Leorio approaches me "Killua.. I- I just want to say that I'm so-" I raise my hand silencing him. "Don't bother.." I say in a dark tone. "Can you at least tell me where your going? Incase we successfully recover Gon's memory and he wishes to s-see you..." Leorio says while scratching the back of his head. "I'm going home..." I turn around and board the boat. "Wait! You don't mean-!" Leorio says trying to stop me. "Yes.." I brake free from him grabbing my shoulder. I board the boat and sulk while the boat leaves the island I can't stop thinking about Gon...

Kurapika's P.O.V
I kept trying to jog Gon's memory but he kept saying he doesn't remember me, Killua or Leorio. He only remembers mito-San and her mother. I try explaining the journeys and adventures we've been on, but he keeps denying everything, saying he doesn't remember anything...