Last January

250313 (II)

Jongin was sitting on the sofa watching television, when the door of Kyungsoo's apartment opened.

"Hyung where have you been? I've been-"

The words froze on Jongin's tongue when Kyungsoo trembled beside him. The first two buttons of his shirt were unbuttoned and Jongin could smell alcohol. Kyungsoo rested his head on Jongin's lap.

"Hyung, what happened?" Jongin looked at him worriedly.

"Jongin...can you get my anti depressant? I keep it in my room." Kyungsoo closed his eyes.

"No. You can't take it anymore because I'm here. Tell me what happened." Jongin stroked Kyungsoo's hair very very gently. He wanted to touch his hyung again, and in one way or another to make him feel better.

There was a long pause before Kyungsoo finally spoke.

"Remember the first time we met?"

"Yeah?" Jongin furrowed his eyebrows, trying to figure out where this conversation was leading. Their first meeting was not exactly in the best environment.

"I wish my parent's were dead. Somehow I envy you. I wish I was born in other family. I'm tired of this shit Jongin-ah, I want to give up" Kyungsoo sobbed softly.

Jongin placed his hand on Kyungsoo's arm as he tried to comfort his best friend. He bite his lips but nothing come from his mouth

Silence engulfed them. Both of them were busy with their own mind. After a moment Jongin sighed heavily.

"Hyung?"

Kyungsoo didn't answer but nodded slightly as a sign that he was listening.

"you can't just give up on your family hyung."

Author Note:

I don't know who you are.

I don't know where you live.

I don't know where you're born.

But let me tell you something.

Family is family.

No matter how bad it is, they are still your family.

No matter what they did that made you hate them, you still can't choose from which family you are born.

A rich family.

A poor family.

A happy family.

A messy family.

A warm family.

No matter how much you want to leave, they are still your family and you stick with them.

You're part of them.

Sometimes family is not blood related.

Sometimes family is someone who is always there for you.

Someone who always love you even if you are so unlovable.

Or even family is someone you hate but you stay with them because deep inside your heart there's still love for them.

Because you cannot give up on family.

So dear readers here is another life secret.

"Love your parents. We are so busy growing up, we often forget they are also growing old."

Sometimes we forget that our parents are human too.

They have feelings too.

And maybe that is why Kyungsoo hasn't understood Or he won't understand.

He still can't accept that his parents divorced.

Who is to blame here?

Everyone deserve to be happy, even though their happiness sometimes destroys another person's happiness. But we can't always get what we want right?

If you have happy family i'm glad for you. But if you have the opposite kind of family, please, I'm begging you,
to stay strong
to keep holding on
to keep faith on your family.
and maybe faith for me