Last January

Valentine's Day Special

13 February 2013

It was a Wednesday night. The crowd was a good size for the night, music blasting through the club. Jongin sat on the bar alone, his right hand rested on his chin as the other hand played with the drink. He ran his hand through hair before he sighed heavily. His head and his heart has been a complete mess lately.

And it's about Kyungsoo.

There was something about him that made Jongin frustrated.

The way he moved, the way he talked,the way he called Jongin's name and the way he slept.

Everything that he did drove Jongin crazy.

The way Jongin would feel comfortable around him and the way Jongin's heart would skip a beat every time their gaze met. And it's really bothering him.

Last time he was sure that he was fucking straight, now he doubted it.

Jongin sighed again in frustration and took another sip of his drink before he realized the glass was already empty. He gestured the bartender to come.

"So what's up?" Wu Yifan, the usual bartender greeted him with a grin as he poured another drink in Jongin's glass.

"Nothing much." He looked at Wu Yifan before taking another shot, a smirk on his face.

"Well dude, it's not your first time coming here and I know you well. I know something is up." Wu Yifan raised one of his eyebrows and looked at him with a judgmental face.

"It's hard to explain." Jongin glanced at his drink. He can feel his cheeks get redder, either it's the effect of alcohol or the effect of the topic they talked about.

"Try me" Wu Yifan replied with a cocky smile.

"Have you ever fallen in love? How do you know if you have fallen in love?" Jongin asked in a serious tone. Wu Yifan looked at Jongin for a while before he burst into laughter.

"What?" Jongin mouthed with an annoyed face.

"Sorry sorry," Wu Yifan stopped laughing and took a breath before he continued.

"You see, it's so rare to find that question here. It's the first time I was asked that question. You see love.doesn't exist in a place like this" Wu Yifan clapped both hands in the air.

"I see" Jongin muttered, taking a sip of his drink.

"But I have good advice." Wu Yifan leaned closer to Jongin as he whispered,

"Kiss her."

"Wh-What do you mean?" Jongin stuttered, his words stumbling out of his mouth even though he not drunk enough.

"Kiss her. After that, you will know if you love her or not. Lucky girl though." Wu Yifan winked playfully and patted Jongin's shoulder.

Jongin nodded slightly and finished his Jack and Cokes in one shot. He can feel the alcohol burning through his throat.

The problem is, it's not a girl.

It's a boy.

It's Do Kyungsoo.
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Jongin didn't remember calling Kyungsoo to pick him up. He only remembered when Kyungsoo suddenly dragged him out of the club. He tried to walk straight as Kyungsoo gripped his arm tightly. There were no words exchanged, only silence accompanied them on their way to Kyungsoo's car.

"Hyung wait, I think i want to throw up." Jongin pushed Kyungsoo lightly. His back arched as he started vomiting at the parking lot.

"Are you okay?" Kyungsoo looked at him with a concerned face while he caressed Jongin's back.

"Wait here okay I will bring water for you" Kyungsoo added before sprinting towards his car.

A moment later Kyungsoo was back with a bottle of water and handed it to Jongin. Jongin grimaced as he swallowed the water. He glanced at the almost empty parking lot.

"What time is it?" Jongin asked bluntly.

"It's 2 a.m. Are you feeling better now? I told you to not get drunk again. This is the last time okay?"

Jongin merely nodded.

"Now let's go back to my apartment." Kyungsoo gestured to his car. Jongin followed him from behind, his steps steadier now.

Kyungsoo opened the car door for him. He got in the car and his body slumped on the passenger seat. He closed his eyes as he felt a sharp pain in his head.

"Shit" Jongin mumbled.

When he opened his eyes, Kyungsoo was already sitting on the driver's seat and cranked the engine. He played the radio to break the silence and a familiar sound came up.

(Love will remember you)

Kyungsoo's foot was about pressing the gas pedal when Jongin grasped his arm.

(And love will remember me)

"You forgot to fasten your seatbelt." Jongin leaned closer to Kyungsoo.

(I know it inside my heart)

Their face were only a few inches away. Jongin eyes fixed on Kyungsoo's heart shaped lips.

Kiss him already.

Those words echoed in Jongin's mind.

(Forever will, forever be ours)

Kyungsoo's eyes widened as Jongin's lips brushed his lips. Their lips haven't touched, but Jongin already felt electricity rush through his veins. And he knew the answer to why there was such a feeling.

He fell in love.

(Even if we try to forget)

"Here." Jongin fastened Kyungsoo's seatbelt before pulling going back to his seat.

Kyungsoo nodded awkwardly.

"Should we drive now?"

"Yeah."

(Love will remember)

Author's note:
Dear readers,

Happy Valentine's Day.

I never planned this chapter.

But we should expect the unexpected right?

I read all of your comments about suicide, so I wanted to say this.

You are stronger than you think you are.

You are worth to life.

If you ever feel like giving up please remember this:

No matter what kind of person you are,

I love you.

Your family loves you.

Your friends love you.

There's someone out there who loves you wholeheartedly, you just haven't met that 'someone' yet.

Living is hard, dying as well.

But you should keep fighting because you are not alone.

Everyone is fighting for their life too.

"You can't save people. You can only love them."

Only you can save yourself.

Other people can only love you.

Just like Kyungsoo, even though in the end he died.

He died loved.

He died for what he loved and what he loved was jongin