Newtmas / Dylmas Oneshots

Dylmas AU: "Sanity: Wanted"

Thomas' POV

Wow. God. Help me.

I miss him so fucking much.

Is that a bad thing?

Because being away from him makes me numb to the bones. Literally.

Without his touch, his tender touch, I am nothing.

I'm repeating myself.

I miss him so fucking much.

Like, for example, right now-no scratch that. I do everyday.

The mere thought of him never left my mind.

Since he left me.

Aching.

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How dare he?

I gave him all that I have.

I sacrificed every little thing I got for the sake of his happiness; for him to be happy, just like how I wanted him to be feeling everyday.

Well, just what they say: "It's better to give than to receive."

But then again, all those sacrifices just got wasted.

Every single one of it.

When that particular day came;

where I accidentally saw him, in our favorite coffee shop with another guy-whose name shall not be mentioned-standing in line, ready to order.

Oh.

I thought instinctively that he's just his brother; or cousin for some reason.

Not some guy he loves that I don't know anything of.

He loves me.

And I quickly shrugged it off my shoulders, like it's not a burden for me to dwell on.

Because it's true.

He always tells me. Always.