Lost Memories

Unbelievable.

I couldn't believe what i was hearing.
I felt my heart stopped for second.

"Althea, confused nanaman ako.
I dreamed of it again last night. The one i was telling you about, the woman who has short hair just like yours. This time, We we're out on a date i think. We ordered orange juice which we didn't drank. We we're just talking. I just knew that she's the love of my life. but i still couldn't see her face, i can't even hear her voice."

Her words, i can't absorb. Is this really happening? She somehow remembers me. She remembers the day when i visited paul's wake. That was a heart breaking moment for us. but i'm glad she remembers a bit of me. Her heart remembers me. Tears started to gather in my eyes as i watched her eating. She has always been telling me about her dreams, With this short haired woman madalas nagkikita lang sila sa panaginip nya. But this time, she dreamed of something that really happened. It's an improvement i think.

I wanted to tell everything but due to her condition, i didn't want to rush it. Me and her family we're advised to take it slowly with jade, to be careful to what we tell her because some memory might trigger her head trauma and may caused her severe headache. And sometimes jade tend to force herself to remember whenever we tell something to her and it really caused her headaches. And i don't want her to feel that again, Ayoko din naman mabigla siya so every time i'm with her, kinekwemtuhan ko siya ng mga magagandang bagay na pinagkasunduan namen. Mga experience ko na kasama siya, mga favorite niyang gawin, pagkain, movies at kung ano ano pa. she told me that she thinks she's a lesbian when she started to dream about the woman she was talking about. Unti unti nya na din nakilala sarili nya at naalala ang mga bagay na tungkol sakanya.

I was just staring at her. Dazzled to her beautiful face, i could do that forever.

It was 3months ago when it all happened. I can still remember the pain and fear of losing her, there we're no words to describe the feeling i felt.
Flashbacks started on my mind.

After Jade and i, got back together again. Her dad and everyone else didn't mind it anymore, as if everyone accepted it.

Jade, miggy and i. Lived together peacefull, happy and full of love. Everything seemed to be at it's placed. My company did really good, and jade is busy running her foundation. We we're satisfied, content in our simple life, as long as we got each other and miggy around. Nakaipon ako at nakabili ng bahay. It's for us, for our family. It's just a simple two storey modern house. It was jade's choice. She did all the decorations and interiors for our humble home, she was so happy and excited when we got it. So basically, everyday is a blessing for us, and i'm always thankful for it. My love for jade grow and grow million times more each day i'm with her, i couldn't ask for more. It was the life i dreamed of with jade. Sobrang bihira kami magaway, kung magkaroon man napaguuspan agad at nagkakaintindihan. I still couldn't believe we ended up together. It's still surreal for me.

"I will just go to our house, lubb. I miss ama. And malulungkot naman ako today because you're busy kaya dadalawin ko nalang siya."

"Ofcourse lubb, you can visit ama! Sabay ka na sakin, ihahatid kita dun."

That moment, felt strange as if something wrong's gonna happen. But i don't want jade to get worried about how i feel, so i ignored.

"It's okay lubb, please let me drive nalang, out of way ka eh. Baka matagalan ka, i don't want you to be late. Please. I heart you!"

How could i resist her charm, even if something doesn't feel right, i couldn't resist her. I just can't resist my jade.

"Sige na nga! Pero be sure to drive safely ha? Please take care!! Wag mo yun kalimutan! Okay? And one more thing. I heart you too!!"