Lost Memories

Pain.

Althea's

We got into the car and i still don't hear anything from jade, i'm all worried and confused why is she killing me with her silence. I knew there was something going on.

"Nga pala Lablab, batchi insisted to fetch miggy at school, tatambay din muna daw siya sa bahay, wala din kasi ata si wila, kaya dito na ko dumeretso from work. Nagtxt na siya na nakauwi na sila." Para lang ako nagsasalita sa hangin. Tulala lang si jade, she doesn't even bother to look at me. I tried to kiss her but she refused, my heart ripped apart but i ignored, i started to drive, i'm still bothered. couple of minutes later, i stopped the car, i couldn't take it anymore.

I turned to look at her, tulala pa din. Parang wala sa sarili niya, at hindi nya man lang ako makuhang tingnan. I held her hand. "Jade, ano bang problema? Are you okay? Are we okay?" Nakita kong tumulo ang mga luha sa mata niya, at binitawan ako. She finally turned to look at me.

"Althea, sino si david sa buhay ko?" May jaw dropped, i frozed. "Bakit di mo man lang siya naikwento sakin, bakit hindi mo nakuhang sabihin, Niloloko mo ba ko? Ang unfair mo. No one even bothered to tell me about him, at nakakasama ng loob na kasali ka pa dun. You know exactly what i feel in this damn amnesia, and how i'm dying to remember everything. akala ko totoo ka sakin, i trusted you, with all of my heart. And.. And you just blew it!! Dinaya mo ko! Pinaniwala mo ko, i felt betrayed, and it felt like i couldn't even trust anyone including you!!!"

Wala akong nasabi, masakit marinig ang mga salitang yun, pero alam kong mali ako, but all i can feel is pain right now. Tears started to fell from my eyes in agony. I couldn't tell her about david, i'm just so afraid for her to remember her feelings for him before. Its not that i have a doubt about jade's love for me, nararamdaman ko naman yun, mahal ako ni jade. But its more of, i being all thretened about david's capabilty and how he can manipulte things, and i know he has something to give that i couldn't. i was still jealous of him, at alam kong hindi na mawawala pa yun. David had been there since they were kids, at alam kong mas kaya niyang ibigay ang buhay na nakasanayan ni jade. Nanliliit ako sa sarili ko, thinking about it. I was really scared that one day i will wake up, and see jade leaving me for him. I couldn't bare that, napapraning ako. Kaya pinili kong hindi sabihin kay jade.

"Jade i, i'm sorry. Its just that.." I was ready to explain everything i feel, i held her hand, and she refused again. "Don't you dare touch me!!" My heart ripped again, this time in thousand pieces.

Jade suddenly got out of the car and ran, so followed her. Tatawid sana siya at my kotseng parating natulala siya at napatigil sa gitna, "Jade!!!!" Hindi ako nagdalawang isip na itulak siya palayo, i didn't even care about myself, si jade lang ang naisip ko ng mga oras na yun.

The next thing i knew, i was there laying, i could even feel the blood dripping from my head, i somehow saw jade looking at me crying, but it was all blurry, i couldn't move, every part of my body is in pain, and i couldn't breathe. Napapikit nalang ako, okay na ko na makita si jade na ligtas. Yun lang ang mahalaga. And even if this night will be the ending, maybe i will die happy.