Lost Memories

Distress.

Althea's

"Hi love! Hi baby boy!" I greet jade and miggy, when i got into her car. She just smiled at me, and i kissed her cheek.

"Hey lablab, are you okay? Gutom ka na siguro noh?" She nodded and smiled. I knew there was something more than being hungry.

"Ako din mommy, gutom na! Kanina pa nga tahimik yang si mommy jade."

"Lagi ka na naman gutom baby! Ako na mag drive lab?"

Bumaba ako at bumaba din si jade, at nagpalit kami, tahimik pa din siya. We went to our favorite dimsum restaurant and had dinner.

When we got home, miggy then wanted to watch a movie, and all through out the movie jade looks confused, and absentminded. I knew there was really something going on.

After the movie miggy head to his room and to get some rest.

"Love, what's wrong?" We were laying on the bed and cuddling.

"Wala naman, i'm just thinking of how insensitive i can be, madalas nakakasakit ako, lalo na sa mga taong hindi deserve masaktan. Lagi nalang akong ganito, naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Gaya mo, i have hurted you so many times, and sometimes i wonder what still keeps me in your heart, because i'm such a big dissapointment. And you know what, you deserve a lot better althea."

"Hindi mo naman ginusto yun love eh, kaya wag mo idown ang sarili mo, just be who you are, nakikita ko naman na lagi mong sinusubukan maging better, and i love you, no matter what."

"I love you too althea, and i would understand if one day you'll give up on me."

"That's never gonna happen jade."

She hugged me, and i could feel her pain and dissapointment of herself.

The next day, jade had an emergency meeting in the foundation, so i dropped her off there, leaving miggy and his new nanny, manang fe. She have arrived early this morning, she was a friend of my father back then, so i have known her for a long time and trust her, jade and i have agreed to get someone who could help us with miggy and around the house, we couldn't managed it because of the working schedules.

After i dropped off jade, i went over to have grocery, and head home to cook, and helped out manang fe clean the house, nilibot ko na din siya sa buong bahay, nag car wash din ako ng kotse ni jade at ng sakin, what a productive day. Miggy is busy doing his projects and homeworks so i head to the foundation to fetch jade when she texted me to.

Nang makarating ako, nakita ko si jade kausap si gabby, nakatayo lang ako nakasandal sa kotse, habang pinagmamasdan sila. Hindi ako nakaramdam ng selos o ano, wala akong maramdamang kahit ano, dahil pinagkakatiwalaan ko na si jade ng buong puso ko.

Gusto ko sana siyang hintayin nalang siya sa loob ng kotse, pero parang lumakas ang boses ni gabby, napalingon ako.

"Jade ako nalang! At oo! Umaasa ako na iwan mo si althea, para sakin! At sobrang sakit na jade."

"No gabby, i won't do that. I'm sorry but i love her so much! And i'm really sorry if i have hurted you, hindi ko naman intensyon yun, i'm sorry. You'll eventually find the one for you."

"Jade!! Please."

Lumapit na ko, hindi ko na nagugutusan ang pag lakas ng boses ni gabby kay jade, at pag pilit dito.

"Bitawan mo siya at wag mo sinisigawan ang girlfriend ko gabby."

Nagulat si jade ng dumating ako, at hinawakan ang braso ko, pinipigilan ako sa pwede kong gawin kay gabby, naiinis na ko, naiintindihan ko naman siya, nagmamahal, nasasaktan at umaasang maging masaya din. Hindi ko lang nagustuhan na sinisigawan at pinipilit niya si jade.

"I'm sorry althea, pero hindi ko na kasi kaya, alam ko hindi dapat ako mangulo sainyo pero, mahal ko si jade. Hindi ko naman gusto to, sinubukan ko naman pigilan kaso hindi talaga."

"Alam ko, pero may darating din na para sayo gabby, i'm sorry. At kung mahal mo talaga siya, hahayaan mo siyang maging masaya."

Hindi ko na hinintay pang may sabihin siya, tiningnan ko si jade "halika na jade."

Sumakay na kami sa kotse, at pinaandar ko na agad ito, pauwi. nang makarating kami sa labas ng bahay, tulala lang si jade.

"Love, dito na tayo." Tumingin siya sakin at naluha.

"Althea, i'm so sorry, wala akong ginawang masama, nagulat lang din ako na ganun na ang nararamdaman niya. Althea please believe me, nothing is going on between us."

"Shh. Jade, wala akong iniisip na ganun. I trust you. And i understand. So just forget about it, and stop crying and saying sorry."

She hugged me, and we got out of the car, nagulat kami ng may kotseng dumating, bumama si cathleen dito.

"What are you doing here?" I said.

"Namiss lang kita babe! I know you've missed me too."

"Leave now bitch!" Jade shouted at her and i've managed to stop her holding her arms.

"Wag kang sumagot jan, hindi kita kausap jade!"

"Cathleen umuwi ka na your drunk!" I said, i'm already getting pissed.

"Babe naman, how bout you drive me home? And we could do something more."

"Get a life you bitch. Althea's mine! Her place is with me!" Jade shouted again.

"Shut the hell up! Wala ka naman ibang alam gawin kundi saktan siya eh! Babe, nabubulagan ka lang alam kong ako pa din ang mahal mo."

"Cathleen, your drunk so go home! And i love jade! Siya lang at wala ng iba!"

"Fuck you! Your lying! Padaliin nalang natin to!" Nagulat kami bumunot si cathleen ng baril sa likod niya at tinutok sakin!"

"Baliw ka na talaga." Jade shouted again.

"Cathleen please your just drunk put that down. Please!"

"No althea! Sumama ka muna sakin, sabihin mong ako pa din ang mahal mo."

I whispered at jade's ear. "Trust me on this." Before i let go of her hand.

"Okay okay, i'll drive you home just put the gun down, at oo sige ikaw na ang mahal ko, please cathleen ibaba mo lang yan!" I was walking towards her slowly.

"You do althea?"

"Yes, please put it down now. I'm coming with you."

"No althea! Your lying! You'll leave me again!"

"No cathleen, please!" I was begging her, to not do anything stupid.

"No the only way i can have you is when you jade is already out of the picture!"

Tinutok niya kay jade ang baril pinutok ito, agad ko naman hinarangan. The next thing i knew, i fell on my knees.