I heard my dad tumble in through the front door. It's 11:30 He must of been rejected from a club or pub or wherever he hangs out and drinks recently for being too drunk.
I heard him smash something in the kitchen. He doesn't clean anymore. That's kinda my thing since the first time I properly left the house.
He doesn't sleep in his bed either. He sleeps on the couch. He tries to avoid going in their room.
Memories maybe ?
I can faintly hear the sniffs coming from the room below me and I try to block them out. I put an earbud in to try to listen to music but I can't so in the end I always just lay in silence.
I hate hearing my dad like this, but I hate trying to talk to him once he's been drinking so I just don't anymore.
I blame myself.
I should try harder.
I picked up my phone and re read the last few messages send and received from beau.
From Beau
- well anyway if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here whenever x
To Beau
- as good as that is to hear I really don't want to talk about anything (:
From Beau
- just as long as you know x
I suppose I could text him now, I mean. I'm sad and I kind of need someone to cheer me up a little at least, I can't be any worse than I am now, and over today me and beau have kind of talked a lot, he's a nice person, kind heart.
To Beau
- hey are you awake ? (:
I sent it to him them looked at the time.
11:45. I suppose we were up late last night I wouldn't blame him if he was sleeping.
From Beau
- am I ever asleep ? xx
A smile crossed my face when I got this text. I felt like I had someone. Anyone would of done but I feel better knowing its someone knew that doesn't know my whole situation and past etc.
To Beau
- do you mind if we talk now ? Or are you busy ?
I sent this to him and once again got a reply within 2 seconds. I love fast replies it means they actually waited for your text...
From Beau
- never too busy to talk to you xx
BEAUS POV -
I knew that was a stupid move earlier. Texting her that I'm here if she needs to talk. Shit Beau. Now she'll think I'm here for sympathetic texts.
I'm happy she's finally text me back though.
Considering I didn't know her till yesterday, I think we've become good friends, she talks to me about ... People, life, what's she's doing.
Not that she does a lot.
I feel like her life is kinda going downhill.
I feel like I want her to be smilie like when she tells me about her life before the accident that happened to her family.
From Lilly
- great, what should we talk about ?
I have no idea.
To Lilly
- have you applied for any colleges ? Have you got in any colleges ? xx
Was that a boring stupid text.
From Lilly
- I've applied for a few and got in 2, I just have to accept which one if i decide to go (:
Why wouldn't she go... Well I know why... But maybe she should
To Lilly
- you've came as far as getting accepted, don't give up ! x
I need water.
I got up and walked out of my room towards the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water.
' WHAT THE FUCK ' I heard from the front room so obviously thinking something was wrong I jogged in to see what's wrong and if I was needed but no, it was just jai fuming because Luke had hid his controller while he was getting crisps and now he's loosing Fifa.
' grow up guys ' I laughed walking back out of the room and grabbed my phone and back upstairs
From Lilly
- it's just people, I now hate people
I get what she means, people can be absolute arse's
To Lilly
- Lilly, would you like to join me tomorrow to first of all go and get some coffee and then I would like you to join me in something that me Luke Jai James and Daniel does :) xx
Maybe if I get her out of her house, and not to a party with loads of people and just around a few people she might start to re consider college !
From Lilly
- I would love to join you haha, but should I be scared ? Joining you after coffee ? (: xx
Kisses ? Kisses ! KISSES !! She sent me back kisses !!
I don't know how many kisses I've sent since this morning and this is the only time she's sent me any back.
I love.
To Lilly
- don't be scared ! And don't be creeped out but bring a change of clothes ?! xx
From Lilly
- you know where I live :) x
Wow. I didn't think she would agree, apparently Lucy's been going to see her for days and she didn't leave her bedroom.
' LUKE. JAI. ' I screamed from my bed and a few minutes later I heard a few feet stamp the ground running to my room
' are you okay ? ' Luke asked me
' oh yeh ' I replied
' fuck head we where playing Fifa ' jai said and began walking away.
' I have something to tell you get back ' I shouted towards jai and the Luke ran towards me and decided to dive into the bed.
' what is it ? ' he asked putting his hands under his chin like a girl.
' I've asked Lilly to come with us tomorrow while we do a video for the janoskians ? You cool ' i asked them
' Lilly ? Lucy's friend ' Luke asked me
' YES ' jai shouted at the end of Lukes question ' she's fit she can come yeeeaahhhh '
' back off mate she's coming with me ' I winked at him and off he stomped back to play Fifa
' yeh Lucy's friend ' I replied to Lukes question
' cool, see you there then I'm gonna have to get back to Fifa ' he said walking out the door but not Long before popping his head back around the door ' tell her to bring different clothes ' he smiled and then with that he was gone.
