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11. Cancer

"With my last breath" She said as she wiped a tear off my tear streaked face. " I'll exhale my love for you. I hope it's a cold day, so you can see what you meant to me" The exact words she told me after she was told she had only a month to live.

No hope for her young soul to survive.

Just like I will be in a few months or hopefully years.

Lifeless, breathless and dead.

Plain old word that people use for the decease.

When I die, hopefully I will be able to say the last few words of my mother that she told me. A quote from Jared Kintz. My mothers favourite quote in her last days. Now to become mine. Spoken in my lips to the last people on this earth that I actually cared about.

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Cancer.

A diagnosis no woman, no man, and no kid wants to hear nevertheless deserves.

Yet there are those very few people who's odds are not in their favor and they acquire some life -sucking cancer.

One of those unlucky people are me.

The constant headaches I've been getting, they were tumours.

They call it Giloblastoma. But its just a fancy word for a bunch of deadly tumours hanging around in my brain having a party and trying to destroy me.

Destroy.

When the doctor was explaining to me what we can do to prevent any serious damage, my mind just blacked out and started thinking of that quote. I personally liked it because on a cold day, a dark,miserable,crappy day, there is always one thing you can hold unto. Love.

I decided from then on now, love will keep me alive. If its either from my dad, my friends or even better, James.

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OMG I ACTUALLY UPDATED. I've been technically writing this chapter for like 10 months now but I finally decided to publish this and I'm so happy I did. This chapter mad me cry writing this and now thanks to this book my Google search is filled with Cancer searches and people will probably ask if I have cancer. Anyway this book is really close to my heart and I love,love love,it and sorry for the short chapter.