Horan Fever (Niall Horan Fanfiction)

Chapter 28

Emily's POV

We just arrived home from the movie and it wasactually the scariest shit that you will ever watch. I literally nearly vomitedit was so scary. Neither Rose nor Harry were scared and Niall was a little butnot as much as me. We all started to make lunch. Niall was cooking some chickenand sausages and Rose was making a salad. Harry was helping Rose but mainlyjust watching as I was setting the table out for our meal. I went and got thedrinks from the fridge and placed them on the table. Niall brought down thesausages and chicken as Rose placed the bowl of salad in the middle of thetable. We all took a seat and started to grab our food. 

"So who liked themovie?" Harry asked us. "It was great" Rose says as I just shake my head andthe others laugh. "It was terrible" I say. "It wasn't that bad" Harry says backbut I give him a look that says 'yes itwas' and he continues to chuckle. We all continue to eat and enjoy ourmeal. Once we finished us all help clean up the table and put all the drinksand left over food in the fridge. I then walked into our bedroom leaving Rose,Harry and Niall to chat. I shut the bedroom door and took a seat on my bed.Right now I actually just feel really sad. I mean from Rose and my chatyesterday about all my friends back home, I feel like I'm not in their livesanymore and I don't know what has been happening. I feel like I am missing outon heaps and to be honest I really miss them all. I miss their warm hugs andsmiles and the laughs we had. I miss Candace's jokes and Jessica's smiles and Avery'slaughs. Ever since Harry and Rose have come it has made me realise that I amactually missing out on a lot. Like Rose goes to Australia almost every twoweeks to catch up with them and I have been gone for at least 7 months. And notto mention my family. 

I haven't talked to them in ages and I do really missthem. I feel like there is a part of my heart missing when I'm not around themand you would think I would be used to it by now but I'm not and I'mstruggling. I know this is crazy and stupid but I think I have to leave. I needto see my friends and I need to see my mum and dad. Everybody that I cared and lovedlive in Australia and I am here in NYC just with Niall. The only girls I have made friends with hasbeen Lotti and Lou. But I think I need to go home. To share laughs with myfriends and to get the warm hugs and kisses from mum and dad. Before I knew itthere was a tear streaming down my face and I quickly wiped under my eyes and laydown on the bed. I'm just debating whether or not to leave. 

I know it is stupidand I love it here but I also love it at home but everybody that I care about.I didn't even know that Jessica was studying drama teaching and I didn't evenknow that Avery was with Zayn. This just proves that I'm not in their livesanymore and I want to be. I miss them and I love them. I think I need to leave,now. I got up from my bed and walked over to the walk in wardrobe. I pulled mysuitcase out from next to the section where all my tops are and I put it on theground. I unzipped the suitcase and started to pack all my tops and pants. 

After I put most of my shoes in and other pieces of clothing. I then put in myspecial pieces of jewellery and other accessories that were very special to me.I could hear footsteps coming towards my room and I quickly got up and shut thewalk in wardrobe door. "Emily?" It was Niall. I stayed quiet hoping that hewould leave even though I just want him here with me right now. "Where areyou?" He asked again this time with a very stressful tone and I just keptquiet. I could hear his footsteps fade and I let out a deep breath. By now Icould feel a lot more tears rolling down my cheek and I just let them fall. Izipped my suitcase up and opened the walk in wardrobe door. There was nobody insight so I quickly snuck out and rolled my suitcase next to my bed. 

I turnedback to look at the wardrobe to see that half of it was empty. I brushed offthe fact that I was leaving and I continued to get ready. I silently walkedover to the bathroom and got my tooth brush and most of my makeup and hairbrush. I then slipped them into my hand bag that was sitting on my bedsidetable and zipped it up. I gently sat on the bed and started to cry, trying notto make too much noise. I looked above my bedside table to see a picture ofNiall and I and that just made me cry even more. Why was I doing this? Am Ireally just going to leave? Will Niall ever forgive me? All these thoughts wererunning through my head and I couldn't handle it. I tried not to think aboutthe negatives but about the positives. I would get to be with Candace and Averyand Jessica and I will be able to fix my relationship with my mum and dad. 

"Emily?"I looked up to see Niall standing at the door with a worried look on his face.He could clearly see the suitcase I packed and my handbag and probably thetears that were streaming down my face. "What are you doing?" He asks me with ascared and worried tone as he walks over to me and hugs me tightly. I didn'tanswer, I didn't know what to say.