Hero's (Destiel/sabriel) *UP FOR REVISIONS*

chapter 52

Listen to the song during castiels p.o.v!!

(Gabes p.o.v)

"Gabe you okay?" I snap out of my thoughts and look at sam who looks very worried."yeah, im fine" I say quietly and he sigjs rubbing my back and pecks my cheek.

"Sure you are" he says and I sigh laying my head on his shoulder and he runs his fingers through my hair."why isn't cas answering me? Does he not care about me anymore?" I ask with my eyes filling with tears.

"Of course he cares for you, he's just going through things right now" sam says and I groan."well so am I but you dont see me ignoring my brother"I say and pout and sam sighs.

"Look gabe, I know youre hurt and I know you feel abandoned but we dont even know exactly how cas feels" sam says." But that doesn't excuse him for ignoring every single pray ive sent to him, in his brother I love him why wont he answer me!" I groan and stand up.

"I just want to see my brother why is that so hard to fucking ask!?" I yell. "Gabe please calm down" sam says getting up and cups my face "please" he whispers.

I take a deep breath and nod and he smiles "good now please sit back down for me" he says. I sit down and he sits down next to me and kisses my cheek "I hate seeing you like this" sam mummbles.

"I hate feeling like this" I say and he sighs and I just rest my head on his shoulder again and continue to watch the movie.

Its been 4 months now since cas left that means it has been 6 months since dean sold his soul too. I miss him so much but im also so pissed off that he left like that.

Its not fair at all just cause dean fucked up I get to be punished too. Now I know its wrong to blame dean but if he wouldnt have freaked out at cas my brother would still be here.

"Hey guys" dean says sitting down next to me and I just scoot way closer to sam." I dont bite gabe" dean says "but you do drive my brother away" I mumble and the room is silent.

"Gabe that was rude" sam says and I get up "I dont care, if he wouldn't freaked out on him cad would still be down here on earth with us" I say and run up to my room.

"Gabe please open the door" sam says "no i dont want to talk to everyone right now" I say crossing my arms." Please just unlock the door" he says and I sigh laying down on the bed.

" why I know you already picked the lock" I say and he opens the door and walks in closing it behind him." You wanna talk to me about anything" he says and I shake my head letting the tears rolling down my face.

"Do you want me to hold you?" He asks and I nod and he pulls me close." I just want my brother" I say and he doesn't say anything to me he just hold me.

Suddenly sam gets up and I look at him and wipe my eyes "what are you doing?" I ask him but he doesnt answer back. "Castiel you son of a bitch dont you see we need you here! Why are you being such a dick!" Sam yells and I walk over to him.

"Sam" I say " no!" He yells and I flinch "I- im sorry, but im sick of seeing you and dean upset all the time" sam says with tears filling his eyes. "Ive been trying to stay strong but its all getting too hard" sam says and bursts out into tears.

I pull him down into a tight hug and he cries into my shoulder and I rub his back. "I didnt know sam I'm so sorry" I whisper and kiss the side of his head.

"I just want you and dean to be happy again but no matter how much I try you guys are always sad again" sam mumbles into my shoulder.

I pull back so I can look into sams eyes " its the thought that counts sam" I say and pull him into a kiss. We start to slowly kiss and I wrap my arms around his neck and he places his on my waist.

"Thank you for trying" I say against his lips and he smiles a bit "always" he says and presses his lips more onto mine. I pull away and smile at him and wipe away his tears.

He smiles back and pecks my lips and hold my hands "now lets go talk to dean" he says and I nod letting go of one of his jands and we walk to deans room.

We walk in and see dean with the first blade infront of him " dean what are you doing?" Sam asks letting go of my hand. "If im a demon again I wont care about cas and I wont be broken anymore" dean says.

"No dean that isnt the way to fix this" sam says wraping thr blad up and taling it." Then tell me how to stop being broken sam! Tell me how to fix it!" He yells and I walk back a bit.

"Dean calm down! I know it hurts but youre not the only one hurting!" Sam yells back. "Yeah but I wss the one who drove him away" dean says quietly amd looks down.

" if I would've just reacted better then he would be here and wedr be together" dean says and drops to his knees. "If only I could take everything I said back he'd be here" dean whispers.

Sam walks over to him and ruba his brothers back and I walk over and place a hand on deans shoulder. " im sorry I drove youre brother away" dean says looking up at me.

"He knew what he was leaving behind though" I say with a crack in my voice. " come here" dean says and he pulls me into a hug and rubs my back.

(Castiels p.o.v)

"HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME!" I scream tugging on the chains on my arms.

"Well hello there castiel" I look to see a red haird angel named anna "why are you keeping me here?" I ask and she just smiles. "Where even am I?" I ask "the place where angels fall" she says nicely.

Before I say anything shes gone and I groan and tug on the chains some more. I used to be able to hear there calls there prayers but now she made me deaf to all of them.

They always bring fake deans and makes me watch him die and I would cry. I heard dean in hell once and before he was all the way in I pulled him back. How did he know I was listening though all the way down in hell.

I was gonna plead the fifth and forget about him, but then I remembered all the things I love about him.

His breath his eyes his face his courage all of that pusjed me from grace and let me want to leave. What made me fall for his hallelujah.

Dean said our hallelujah before my fall and after his lift when I pulled him back from hell. But then from my lips she drew our hallelujah.

I can still see him at night knife clutched tightly in his hand as he lied awake in bed listening to the shadows. I was going to leave my grace and go back to them until she locked me up here and wont let me go.

I really hope dean doesn't think ive abandoned hope for him cause im still holding onto our rope and im not letting go till I find our hallelujah.

I was even thinking since ive been in here maybe there is a god up up here. Before I met dean I didnt really know how to love, maybe through him he tried to show me love. It was a long and twisted road but it led me to him.

I need to get out of here so I can go home to my hallelujah.