JEFF'S POV
I don't know what to do. Mom and Dad are planning the Engagement. Argh I need to get out of this fuck decision! I won't marry Sarah jst for our business sake ! But how?? Mom told me that I should marry her . We don't have anything since i destroyed everything. It started because of me ! It's my fault! I Know ! But I can't marry her! There's only one person in my heart that's only Natasha ! I really can't do this !
"Hey Bro, Prepare yourself we're going to have a dinner date with sarah's family. Goodluck Bro."
Arghhh ! I really hate this ! (×_×;
He is Clarence Pablov He's my eldest brother. He's 20 yrs old. Everything around him seems so easy. He doesn't make everything so complicated unlike me. He's so cool but serious in times.
Kriiiing! Kriiiing!
Sarah is calling..
Shhhh. fuck.
"Where are you?" --sarah
"At home. Why?"
"Get ready for the dinner."
"Sarah.. can we pls stop th.."
"Eh pano pag sinabi kong ayaw ko??"
*tooot*tooot*
She always being like that. Her voice tells me that she doesn't really care. She used to have many flings. But her parents doesn't allow her to have a relationship wth anyone of them. I don't know why kng bkit ako pa ?!
"Bro, Im sick I can't go wth you later."
"You know Jeff you can't. Be ready Dad is going home na."
"Fuck Kuya! Hndi mo ba ako naiintindihan??!! Ayoko nga sinabi!"
Hinila nya dmit ko at nilapit sknya .
"Damn it Jeff! Di ka ba nakakaintindi?? Jst play the game bro! We need their Family at alam mo kung bakit!!"
"Fuck this life!!bkt pagpapakasal at engagement pa ang kabayaran??! I can't do this kuya! "
Napaupo na ko ako at napaluha. I dnt know how to handle this situation . Feeling ko kino- control nlng ako ng mga tao sa paligid ko. My heart is only for Natasha. I promise na babalik ako.Ano nang ggwn ko?? T.T
"Hey Brad stand up! Dnt act like a child ! Naiintindihan ko klagayan mo. But we need to do this, okay? Jst let her fall for you. Marry her. After that leave her Just what you want . I know that's too bad to do, but if that's what you want.. You said Natasha is waiting for you. Kaya kung ako sayo, sasakyan ko nlang muna to. Pgktpos balikan mo na kung sno tlga yung mahal mo. Nagegets mo ba ako bro?(sabay tap sa shoulder ko)"
Why is that it is so easy for him? pero pagdtng saakin hirap na hirap na ako. Ganun nlng ba kadali yun?
"Come on Bro, tara na."
*Vienna's Restaurant*
"Oh hi Jeff and Clarence :) "
umupo kmi ni Kuya, kaharap si Sarah. Kaming tatlo lang ang magkakasama. We are suppose to talk about the engagement.
"Ow, oo nga pla, Jeff we are going to London to have a vacation :))"
"What??"
"Ahm, excuse me guys.. I have to go ."
Umalis si Kuya . Maybe it's his girlfriend na nman.
"Okay, Bye " --Sarah
"Back to the topic. Mom wants us to know more each other. But not here, sa London. We are going to stay there atleast two weeks."
"No, im not going there. As far as i know, It's an arrange marriage. And if that's the case, we dnt need to know more each other.
"So what are you planning jeff?? Live wth me without even knowing my real personality??"
"It's jst an arrangement! The marriage doesn't mean anything to me ! Its jst a fuck arrangent ! Kung di lang..!"
"Kung di lang ano?? Kung di nyo lang kailangan pamilya nmin , di mo to itutuloy?! Fck Jeff akala mo ikaw lang ang kawawa dito! May mahal din akong iba na iniwan ko para pakasalan ka ! Di dhil gsto kita! Kundi dahil sa gsto nla mommy! (unti unting tumutulo mga luha nya ) It's always YOURSELF ! You always find yourself na kawawa! Pano nman ako Jeff ha??!! Akala mo ba ikaw lang nahihirapan dito??!! Alam ko di ntn gsto ang isa't isa! Pero sana nman ipakita mo sakin yun dpat na inaasta mo dito sa Arrangement na to! Hndi yung ako lang ang Nag eeffort ! Ako yung babae dito jeff pero ako yung nag eeffort ! Ikaw ang may kailangan sa pmilya ko hndi ako ! Pero sarili mo prn iniintindi mo! Isipin mo yung maggng consequence nito sayo pag sinukuan ko to. Im tired Jeff. I want to rest (sbay lakad papalayo sa akin.)
Naiwan akong mag isa sa restaurant. I feel so guilty. Di ko gstong saktan sya. Tama nga sya. Dpat ako ang nag eeffort , dapat ako ang magaling makitungo. Ksi ako , pamilya nmin ang may kailangan sknla. Naawa ako sknya. Shet Jeff! Why do you always make the girls cry!! We were the same. Parehas kming may mahal na iba at di ko alam yun. Ang akala ko ako lang ang may iniwan. So selfish ! I dnt know how to react. But i know what is must.
Kuya Clarence messge you..
"Hey Bro. Dumaan ka dito sa San Lorenzo Hospital Bilisan mo!"
Fck ano to??!! O.O
BINABASA MO ANG
Forever Failed
DiversosFAILING doesn't always means Being down,frustrated,confused and dissapointed. It can show the Great Love of someone you never imagine to have.
