Hold my Hand

Chapter 20

P.O.V

Seth (Christmas)

Snow covered the ground making for perfect Christmas weather. Not to mention it was sticky snow. Yep that meant snow fight.

Which was currently what we were all doing outside at my dad's house. He had invited everyone over for Christmas dinner which we had all accepted the invitation gratefully after it was confirmed that Molly would be cooking instead of dad. Thank god for that.

Sam's Aunt was inside with Chloe's mom, Alek's Adopted mom, and my dad and Molly. They were doing the usual old people thing. Drinking wine and talking about their crazy kids. Chloe's little brothers were over on the other side of the yard making a giant snowman. Steering clear of our sno ball fight.

Alek had just got me right in the face with a fast ball. My nose still stung from the impact and the cold. I was prowling toward his hiding spot.

It wasn't easy for someone his size to hide so he was getting hit the most. I snuck up behind him and nailed him right in the back of the head. His facial expression had me on the ground rolling with laughter.

"Damn it Seth. Your a bastard."

The girls took our weak moment as a advantage as they came out of hiding and just started chucking snow balls at us. Fuck they must've made like 50. Which didn't surprise me since Alek and I had been focused on each other and not the girls.

"Haha got you losers!" Chloe said pointing specifically at Alek. He just rolled his eyes and muttered something like cheap shot.

After we played a little more we gathered up the twins and went inside to eat.

We had a great meal, and all sat around for a while afterwards telling old Christmas stories. Sam seemed carefree the whole night.

Alot had changed in the past month. Sam had become more open and had stopped withdrawing into herself. Touch no longer was something she feared, and she had stopped seeing her Doctor for good.

Her Aunt was still healing from her accident and surgery, but she was in alot better shape than she had been. Sam was relieved her Aunt was healing so quickly.

Chloe was still her funny hyper self though something had definitely  changed. She was still too skinny, and her eyes still showed signs of lack of sleep. I could tell Sam was worried about her. Alek was extremely worried, but knew he needed to give her space. Chloe had been through something that just doesn't go away in a night, and Alek understood that more than anybody.

All in all everything was back to normal. Well as normal as it could be.

Sam and I left the party early after I assured her Aunt that i'd have her home no later than midnight.

Arriving at my house I lead Firecracker into the living room where Alek and I had sit up the tree.

"Okay, love. Go sit down." I watched as Sam sat down on my sofa. She was dressed in black dress pants and had on a wool sweater and a snow cap. She looked so innocent and beautiful. I got out her presents and brought them before her.

"Seth! You didn't have to get me anything!" Her cheeks were flushed red with excitement and her bright blue eyes were wide with surprise. She had taken off her snow cap giving her wild hair that had me smiling.

"Hold on a minute I'll go get your gift." Sam got up and walked over to where she set her purse. She took out a small rectangled shaped box that was wrapped in Hello kitty wrapping paper.

"Firecracker you didn't have to get me anything either. Though I'm really digging this wrapping paper." I said winking at her.

Sam unwrapped her gifts first. I had gotten her three gifts. A locket that said Forever that had both mine and her picture in it; The entire 10 seasons of supernatural on dvd; and the last was the drawing I had sketched of her not long after first meeting her.

"Seth I love these." She already had the locket around her neck and was still currently staring at the sketch I had done of her.

"You made me look so beautiful Seth." I laughed at that. I had spent hours on that drawing, because I couldn't quite capture her natural beauty. Sure the sketch of her was beautiful, but not as lovely as the real thing.

"Baby, you are beautiful. You're so gorgeous you take my breath away sometimes. I love you Firecracker."

She gave me a watery smile. "I love you too Seth." My girl was so emotional. She cried all the time. Sometimes it was scary because I wasnt sure if she was crying because she was excited or because she was sad. I loved it though. I loved everything about her.

I opened my gift to find a dog tag. It had mine and Sam's name on it on one side. Then it had Forever written on the back with the date we first met.

I loved it. I loved her. Sitting my gift aside I walked over and picked my girl up off the couch and kissed her till we were both breathing hard. She had wrapped her legs around my waist. It felt good. "I love it Sam. Thank you." I whispered against her lips before resuming the kiss.

I carried her into my room where I laid her down gently, crawling on top of her never once breaking the kiss. She tasted amaizing. She always tasted amazing.

I got lost in her taste, my hands roaming the wonderland that was her body. Before we knew it I had us both half naked. Firecracker kept moaning, "More!." Making my lust take over.

I knew what was about to happen if we didn't stop.

It took alot of willpower, but I pulled away from a dazed looking Sam. "Your stopping again? You stopped last time too." Sam stuck her lip out and pouted. I laughed at her and gave her lips a soft peck.

"Baby, put your shirt back on then I'm going to talk to you." I needed her shirt back on because I was really close to saying fuck it and giving into lust.

Sam pouted again but put her sweater back on. I sit down beside and pulled her into my embrace. "Okay, love. I keep a stopping because you are new to all of this and I'm not going to take advantage of that. Second, I want your first time to be special. Mainly because I never had that, and you deserve it to be special. Now the last reason is more for me. I don't want to wear a condom. I want the first time I'm in you to be able to feel you, and more importantly I want the goal to get you pregnant. Now seeing as you have 2 more years of school left I think we should wait till you graduate and we're married."

Sam's face was priceless when I finished. "Seth.. that's 2 years.. that means we can't be intimate for 2 whole freaking years! I can just get on birth control. You don't need a condom then!" Aww.. my baby wanted me bad I thought with a smirk.

"Nope Firecracker. No birth control. Ever. I don't trust that shit not to mess up your system. What if it makes you have infertility issues? Or period issues?" I paused to chuckle at how red her face got when I said period before continuing.

"Besides who said anything about not be able to be intimate. There are plenty of other ways to satisfy eachother without going the whole way baby. I just need you too promise not to beg me to take you. Because if you do that when I'm full lust mode I won't be able to hold back." With that being said I waited for her to promise, then I glanced at the clock which read it was only 8:30 pm. We had a little time left.

Smiling at my Firecracker I begain to peel off her sweater once again, planing on showing her what I meant.