I kiss boys

I need you

When I woke up on Saturday morning the first thing I thought of was Zen. I rushed through a shower and then threw some clothes on. Grabbing my keys and an extra pair of clothes for Zen, I ran out the door. When in got to the the infirmary Zen was already awake. He was talking to one of the medical students. He hadn't noticed me yet so I continued walking to get closer to him. When I was right behind him I stopped. His shirt was halfway off because he was showing the medical student a large purple bruise that was on his lower back. My face had taken a worried look. "Zen." I whispered. He turned around and dropped his shirt down. "Ashy!" He squealed softly. I closed the space between us and hugged him tightly. "Ash, its just a few bruises." He chuckled lightly. I didn't return the chuckle. To me this was no situation to laugh. I Shuffled out of the hug and reached out to touch him. I lightly lifted up his shirt with my left hand and then traced the outline of the bruise on his back with my right hand. He shivered slightly. "This is all my fault." I sighed and hung my head down. Zen twisted around again and gripped my wrist yanking me in front of him. He gave a look to the medical student who was still standing behind me watching us in a mixed expression between awkwardness and horror. Her expression made me confused, were we doing anything wrong? When her eyes met Zen's she scurried away towards the exit of the infirmary. "Ash, this most definitely was not your fault. It was all mine. I was going to meet you at your dorm and apologize. I don't know why because you probably wouldn't except it, I mean you have a valid reason not too. I just thought that if I avoided you for a while then things would go back to normal but then I realized if I stopped trying to fix things then I would lose you forever and I can't have that because I need you in my life. I need that cute little dimpled smile. I need your soft spoken words to heal me when I'm upset. All in all I just need you. Without you I would probably still be in that depressed situation. I never thought I would say this, but Ashtyn Rain I think I really like you. As more than a friend." He finished up his speech and my heart was currently struggling to beat. I didn't know how to respond, I mean of course I like him. Who wouldn't? But when I first met him he was straight and somewhat of a player. I haven't even known him that long, so I guess this was all up to me. Should I or should I not trust him? Without answering the tons of questions that were running through my head I leaned forward and placed a hard kiss on the corner of Zen's mouth. I didn't really want to go full on lip contact just in case he wasn't comfortable with it, but Zen didn't seem to mind. He smiled wide and put his arms around my waist pulling me into a awkwardly positioned hug. I was snug in between his legs with my arms resting around his neck. To say the least, it was the best hug ever!