I kiss boys

Skippers part 2

Ashtyn's pov

I woke up due to Zen's annoying habit to move so much in his sleep. There were times where I've had to push him all the way to the other side of the bed just hoping that he'll fall off rather then disturb my sleep with his constant moving. Usually his movements stop if I just hold him in my arms but something about that doesn't feel right to me. I mean I want to comfort Zen, but he tends to play the macho card and acts like he doesn't need anyone's love or help because he's Zen and does whatever he wants without thought. I stayed still for a while just looking up at the ceiling waiting for Zen to settle back into his sleep, however his thrashing only got worse the more he got deeper into his nightmare. Zen's nightmares really tear him up inside and he won't confront them as a problem, which really makes me worry about him. Such a tough guy having such horrible nightmares. Zen is truly a teddy bear at heart. A tough teddy bear though. I eventually gave in to his constant gripping at my sides and put my arms around him to calm him and hopefully make him find security in his dream now that he feels protected. His moving ceased and he went back to breathing peacefully. Every so often his eyes would flutter and his nose would twitch as well as his lips. When I looked over at the clock I realized it was almost time for lunch. After holding Zen for so long just so he could get a decent amount of sleep is such exhausting work that should be rewarded with endless nachos. I tried to get the thought of nachos out of my head and focus on Zen's need of sleep. I couldn't just leave him here though while I go get food. He would literally kill me. First for leaving him all alone without a note left behind that I'm not in the house anymore or something and second for not bringing him any nachos back because we all know I'd eat them all. I closed my eyes and tried to fall back asleep for a few more hours.
Eventually Zen decided to wake up and left me asleep while he left the house. I assume he went to get food. I expect him to bring me back some because he's not as much as a pig as me. I figured while he was gone I'd take the chance to catch up on all the school work I've already fallen behind on. I haven't even had time to even process the amount of stress I'm under that's how bad it is. I guess it's better that way though. After checking the work I needed to do, I realized it actually wasn't that much. And I worked on a few small papers that were just about our personal selfs that the teachers assign to start off the year. I kinda felt like I was back in high school, no matter how old I am I have a feeling all I'll ever be able to write for those papers is how much I still don't know who I am and I still have no hobbies and nothing exciting has ever happened in my life. I'm just always gonna be lost. It doesn't bother me that much because I know I'll never hopefully have to write another one of those as soon as I get out of college. Nobody will have to know how boring I am. I had finished all of my homework before Zen even got back. I decided to text him and see if he actually went out for food or was being a jerk and just left me all alone. A minute after I sent the text asking where he was I got a reply back. He said something about being on his way back now with all the food we could possibly need plus movies to binge. I was starting to wonder why movies were becoming a common thing for Zen and I to do together. Was it just because he loves movies or he likes being comforted by the cuddling. I don't think Zen would ever use me on purpose to make himself feel wanted, but if he's unknowingly doing it then it's not something I can blame him for. I sat on the bed just thinking and somewhere in all that brain work I fell into a deep sleep that right before I closed my eyes I reassuringly  convinced myself that this was only a small power nap. But we all know that's not how it works. I sleepily pulled the sweatshirt off of my body and yanked the blanket up to my waist. A small nap before Zen gets back can't hurt.