Maid for the Casanova

Chapter Twenty Three - The Letter

Tracy's Point of View:

I wasn't able to sleep last night, thinking about what Zoey told me in the kitchen. I thought talking to someone is the best idea yet it made me more confused. But she made a point there. It feels like I'm torn between two guys. Is it really possible to fall for two guys at the same time? But Zoey was right. It's beyond unimaginable. I can't fall for two guys at the same time. I headed to Scott's room and knocked on his door. But no one answered. I am still his maid, I shouldn't forget my responsibilities. I need to act professionally if I want to finish college. The only reason I'm going to college is because his parents is paying for my expenses in exchange of me, working for their son.

I opened the door but Scott was nowhere to be found. Seems like he's up early today. Well, it's probably a good thing because I can start cleaning his room now that he's not around. I really don't know how I can face him after what happened yesterday. His bedroom is not that messy, as a matter of fact it looks a little organized than before. I started cleaning his room by fixing the books on the shelf. I never thought that he likes reading. He had different collections of car magazines. I guess I'll never understand guys. I sighed.

While I was wiping his table, I saw a notebook on his bed. I picked it up to put it inside the drawer but then just as I was about grab it a folded paper fell on the ground. So I unfolded the paper to see what's inside out of my curiosity.

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Tracy,

Writing a letter was never my thing. I usually receive tons of letters from my fan girls and this is the very first time I wrote a letter to someone. I can't find the right words to say so I decided to let it all out using this piece of paper. It wasn't the perfect time to tell you everything yet but something tells me that I should before I can lose you completely. I can still remember the time when you accidentally entered my room, it was a stupid yet funny mistake. I never thought that I'll meet you in the wrong place at the wrong time. You were irritating at first after all the nagging and quarreling we had that day but yet I find your sweet smile a little attractive. You are the very first girl that made me feel this way. I kept on finding myself smiling for no apparent reason. Do you remember the time when you made me wait in the parking lot for more than two hours? I was mad at you that day, yet something tells me that I can't resist staying mad at you for too long. You were the only person that made me wait for a long time. But I guess you're worth waiting for. I don't even know why I introduced you as my girlfriend in front of Maddison. Yes, I want to get rid of my psycho, possessive ex girlfriend but my senses are telling me that there are other reasons aside from that. And do you remember the time when we got locked up in the library? I don't regret a single moment out of it. I enjoyed spending time with you, only the two of us. I'm afraid to look at the time because all I wanted is to spend more time with you. But why can't we have that alone time now? Why are you trying so hard to avoid me?But you know what I regret the most? It's because I was afraid to tell you what I really feel about you, about what I felt when I first laid my eyes on you. I never thought that I'll gain the courage to do so, but then Austin happened. Why did I even let him stand in my way? Yet, I did nothing about it. But then I realized, I won't give up on you easily. I'm willing to fight for you even if it means losing my best friend. Well, fighting for the one you love even if its a losing game is always better than doing nothing about it.

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I tried to keep myself calm and control my tears after reading the letter. I really don't know what to feel right now. I wiped my tears with my bare hands. I never thought that Scott feels that way about me. I folded the paper and put it inside the notebook then placed it in his drawer. I gasped for air before leaving his room. As I open his door, I saw him standing outside. I don't know what has gotten into me but I let my emotions overcome me and I wrapped him in my arms.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

I tried to stop myself from crying so hard then I released him and I ran to my room without looking back, without saying a word. I don't know why his words had an effect on me. I shouldn't feel this way. I know that what I'm feeling right now is wrong. But I'll be fooling myself if I said I'm okay. I don't want to hurt Scott nor I don't want to hurt Austin. But Zoey was right, I need to make up my mind. Sooner or later, there is this certain someone that will get hurt. And I was tired of the pain.

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