Maid for the Casanova

Chapter Twenty Four - Is this goodbye (for real)?

Tracy's Point of View:

I really don't feel like going to school right now. I'm not feeling well today. I just want to stay in the comfort of our house the whole day. But since I don't want to be wasting Aunt's effort of enrolling me in the university, I'll go to school.

"Tracy, are you okay?" Aunt asked me. We're having our breakfast in the dining table right now. Scott doesn't want to go to school today so I'll just ride a cab.

"Yes Aunt, I'm okay don't worry" I gave her a weak smile and took another sip on my coffee.

"Is there something bothering you?" She asked again.

"Nothing, I'm fine" Yes, I'm perfectly fine. Its sarcastic as it sounds. I don't want Aunt to worry about me.

"You know honey, you can always talk to me" She smiled at me then tapped my back. Oh how I wish I could tell aunt what's really going on right now. But I don't want to cause her any more problems. Isn't handling a company is big enough pain in the ass? That's the reason why I don't want them to get involved in my silly little problem. I need to settle my problems on my own.

I took a cab on my way to school. I saw Austin waiting for me in the garden and the moment he saw me, he smiled at me.

"Hey" he greeted me.

"Austin, we need to talk" I said.

Okay, now that he's here. I can't find the right words to say at this moment. I feel like stuttering. Just get to the damn point, Tracy. I thought to myself. Am I even doing the right thing? This is harder than I thought.

"Sure, is there something wrong?" He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion, while looking directly into my eyes.

"I-I'm confused" I started.

"About what?" He asked.

"About everything" I stated as I tried to control my tears from overflowing.

"This is about Scott, isn't it?" He added.

"This is about Scott, about me, and you. I-I really don't know what to do anymore" I complained as tears started to flow from my eyes. I know that this will be painful but I guess talking to him is for the best.

"So what are you planning to do?" He asked.

"I need space, I need more time to think" I answered.

"Are you breaking up with me?" He asked. I can see the pain in his eyes, I can't afford seeing him like that. I don't want to hurt him.

"I don't want to be unfair to you" I stated.

"I understand, and you know what? I'll give you all the time that you need to make up your mind. And when I'm back I'm hoping that you'll choose me someday" He answered then he cupped my cheeks and wiped my tears with his finger.

"Don't cry, Tracy. I hate seeing you like that" He said then smiled. And at that very moment, I really don't want to let him go. But I need to do this, for both of us.

"Goodbye, Tracy" He bids his farewell then kissed me on my forehead. He started to walk away, leaving me in the middle of the garden. I just closed my eyes and here's hoping that when I open them again, I'll realize that everything is just a dream. Like everything is not real as it seems. But I'll be lying if I'm going to convince myself that this is just an illusion. I need to clear my mind before fixing my relationship with Austin. I need to figure out what I really feel for Scott or if what I feel for Scott is greater than what I feel for him. And I don't want to stay in a relationship with Austin if I'm still confused about what I feel for both of them. It will be more painful for him to stay in a relationship with his girlfriend who is uncertain about what she really feels. So as much as I wanted to make him stay, I knew that somehow I need to let him go.

I opened my eyes and saw that he's gone.

"Goodbye, Austin" I whispered.

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Author's note:

Okay, writing goodbyes was never easy for me. I need to feel the same pain that my characters feel. And when they cry, I tend to cry as well. I know it sounds stupid but that's just how it goes. So enough with the drama, I'd like to thank you all for reading this chapter. At least you guys managed to make it this far. I've lost count of the remaining chapters. Maybe two or three. I abhor math. Anyways, stay tune for the upcoming chapters of this book. I love you all. ❤️❤️❤️

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