Her

HEY

... Hes better know... Hes better know... I didn't know what he was better know meant but from the girl that sent me that picture I knew it was something to do about cutting.  I was mad at the fat the girl sent me that but I was mad at the fact Ashton didn't tell me. What if hes not okay? What if I am not okay? Does he still self harm himself? Hes better know can't just be because of me. No. I didn't know what to do. All I wanted to do was cry. Lay down on my bed and cry.  I looked at my phone, the text from Ashton. He replied back.. Should I ask him? I looked over at Jamie, she was typing to a bunch of people still... but I couldn't just not be strong. Jamie already talked me through the horrible fans that were just jealous. Was the girl that sent me the picture a jealous fan?

" Jamie, I still don't understand. Should I ask him?" 

" You can but that's his past Molly and He might not open up to you right away about it. I wouldn't worry some fans just post things because it gets to people you know" 

" Yeah... yeah okay that's fine. Thanks" 

" Np NOW TEXT THE BOY BACK "

I looked down at my phone. His replies were cute, mine just messy and sloppy. not romantic at all... I didn't even know what to write, it was like everything I ever knew about talking to a guy via text or in person was just a mess know. I really liked Ashton.

" Thanks for making sure I got home alright,                                                                                                                         Jamie seemed happy and still is, I think you                                                                                                                    might have gave her a heart attack though"

                                                                                " Oops didn't mean to do that, and yeah I had so much fun                                                                                             tonight too. I want to do it again, I know i'll be jumping                                                                                               around from show to show but come with me?"

" um Jamie?"

" Yes"

I dropped my phone. I was so excited but I knew mom wouldn't let me go. I mean I have school and she was ever a little worried that I was going by myself to a concert and a hotel by myself. I wanted to jump on the bed, the emotions going through me right now were incredible. I never though I could feel this way at the same time I am feeling 500 other things... I wanted to say yes but reality was I was still in school and I wasn't famous or anything were my future might be doomed. I hated school, never once was taught on paper what life was about, no one told me this would happen, no one said that I was going to meet a famous idol and fall completely in love with him, in person. 

Jamie looked at me like I was crazy but I couldn't stop, like someone was pinching me in my dreams of meeting 5sos not to mention possibly dating a member of the band but I never woke up. I didn't want to wake up either, this was a amazing dream, even my favorite movie couldn't replace this. 

" HE ASKED YOU TO GO WITH HIM... OMG WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO SAY" 

" Well I have school and I really wanna go. I feel like I'm whining "